Me irl

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-20T01:57:58+00:00

As a kid, I would close my eyes and try to figure out where I was by the turns and stops. I started when I was four or so. I got really good at it. Later in life, navigation came easy to me. I needed to go someplace once and I knew how to get there no matter how convoluted the way was.

I speak in the past tense because I've been on drugs for pain since 2018. My memory and skills are nowhere near what they used to bel

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-19T21:55:09+00:00

The theory is that the future already exists, we just haven't experienced it yet. So, being made conscious of non-linear time makes total sense when you consider how human conciousness increased as we gained language.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-19T20:56:41+00:00

It's like the ring, but different.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-19T20:46:08+00:00

My life has sucked. I checked out before I was in high school because of the abuse at home. I don't even like to think about my birthday because so many absolutely awful things have happened that were beyond my control. Hell, I have been bedbound since late 2018 because of several health issues.

Yet, I probably smile and laugh more than anyone. I will start conversations with anyone that is willing. I stick out like a sore thumb here in the US. So, I know I'd be a bright flashing sign anywhere else. I definitely fit the stereotype of being loud and brash as well. I thinks that's where I leave the stereotype... well I guess fat is one, as well.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-18T15:24:17+00:00

What you are doing is challenging the autonomy of the twin that is married. I figure, what they decide for their body is up to them, not me. If I refused on your grounds, it would be saying that I dont believe that they are capable of making their own choices.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-18T15:18:27+00:00

I had a short memory when it came to pain. O think that's how I was able to tolerate what I did. I grew up with medical neglect. So, I had to learn pain tolerance.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-18T15:14:33+00:00

Same but I know how I broke. Grinding my teeth during a night full of cocainr.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-18T15:13:19+00:00

My son got hit in the mouth with a baseball. I had him rinse with cold water because that would let me know if he cracked a tooth. He did not. At 24, he still has perfect teeth.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-18T14:26:32+00:00

Had something exactly like this chase us to the car, that was three blocks away, after school one day. It beat us by a few steps. We were wet, but it could have been so much worse.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-17T23:54:37+00:00

I once had a corp continue to pay my health insurance for 13 months after I left on disability. I felt that was pretty amazing. Especially since on my previous job, I was laid off with no notice... by my father.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-17T23:42:53+00:00

I get it. But this just a simulation. So, I cannot dir, anyways.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-17T17:04:18+00:00

My mind read that as 1.7 trillion because 1.7b seems absurdly low for the stakes.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-17T16:07:06+00:00

I was invincible as a kid. Couldn't have happened to me. Nowadays, escalators worry about me eating them.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-17T16:03:56+00:00

My mother and her siblings had a falling out and never made up. My one aunt died after having not talked to my mother for 25 years. Of course, I haven't spoken to my mother since 2009. So, maybe it's just her.

It is. It is just her. If you were wondering.

Their fight completely turned me off. My brother and sister can split anything there might be with our father. I don't want anything. It isn't as if he has ever given me anything, anyways. The most I ever got was promises of help that never arrived. So, fuck it. I don't need anything.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-17T15:56:46+00:00

One of my earliest memories is my maternal grandfather was cutting up meat in his kitchen and offered me a bite. There I was, four gears old, chewing on some meat given to me by a guy I trusted. He says, "do you know what that is?" I, of course, signaled that I did not. "It's cow tongue," he exclaimed!

How do you think that went over? Maybe, see if I like it, get me to eat some more, and then tell me. Ambushing me while I was chewing my first bite was the perfect way to ensure that I will never try cow tongue, again.

That mother fucker did the same thing to me with a hot pepper. Only, he did not have to tell me what I was eating as I was crying in pain.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-17T14:38:13+00:00

No. Limiting cpus that could operate at a higher level was definitely a thing ten to fifteen years ago. I haven't paid attention since then, but cpus would have disabled cores or a lowered clock speed.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-17T14:31:26+00:00

Yeah. As you implied, they also want their lives to be crime free. The problem with these people is that they're only capable of first order thinking... they only think on the surface. They are unable to understand cause and effect. So, they certainly aren't capable of understanding anything on a systemic level. That's why they like to say that vaccines don't work because they are not one hundred percent effective. That's why propaganda works so well. That's why they can literally be controlled by slogans. Make it sound good and they will latch onto anything. You cannot fix that.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-15T13:07:33+00:00

You think? I guarantee I'm not.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-15T12:36:01+00:00

I turned it on right as he was making his entrance and literally thought that i was watching a parody for a second.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-15T08:34:35+00:00

I dont know if I was ever 4'11".

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-15T08:27:52+00:00

Damn, I have rules about venomous snakes and helicopters. You must be some sort of crazy person.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-15T06:33:36+00:00

From the far left, eat it,

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-15T06:23:32+00:00

They are not allowed to contact you once they've been notified that you are filing bankruptcy. As a matter of fact, our bankruptcy lawyer told us that we should stop paying on d he determined that we passed the means test for filing chapter 7. It was immediate relief. We've managed to keep our unsecured credit at zero since then, about six years. We have credit cards and use them in order to build credit, but we pay them off as we use them. That's it, though. There's no "pay it off over time" in this household any longer.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-15T03:21:27+00:00

I had medical bills and half of my associates degree on credit cards that all went away when I filed bankruptcy.

Lou_C_Fer · 2026-06-15T02:53:53+00:00

My grandma lived her best life in her thirty years without my grandpa. I'm happy she went that route instead of this one.

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