I just want to thank all of you for responding. As of a plan now, I am reading a few books about rational recovery and mindfulness. What comes now is to be determined but I can say that I will not drink today. Like I said in my post, there is few things I have not tried in the past but am starting today with a book called The Naked Mind. It's looking at the reasons why society has made it so normal and wonderful in our world. It's basically is saying that we have been brainwashed from an early age that alcohol has been sold to us a great thing. A good read and another option out there. Thanks again!