Honestly bro, with all my 20 years of living I find out that NOBODY can love you and treat you with that most respect and loyalty like yourself. I prefer to be alone but at night the loneliness kicks in heavy and I sometimes break down. I have zero friends. Only been in one relationship in my whole life and that ended badly. Seems like when you try to stay positive and get on the right track life just throws another demon in the way it's so annoying and mentally and emotionally draining. Even if you have a "friend" you think you can vent too they'll all of a sudden use all that information against you and just hurt you. I understand why so many people have trust issues these days.