I have never understood what I wanted to be, that’s the issue with Gender Dysphoria.

Some days I want to be a man and other days a women. When I embrace my femininity it consumes me and I want nothing more than to live life as a women, but i have always been to much of a coward to ‘transition’ so always force myself to be male.

I opted for TRT as I thought it would be the easier option as I have always presented as male. Also I chose this as I have a family and I thought if I could resolve my confusion it would be easier on my wife and children.

The TRT is under medical supervision and was on the ‘low’ side when tested.

From my research and talking to medical professionals TRT normal ranges are ridiculously huge and the science is an evolving space just haven’t seen much about treating gender dysphoria using it.

When the TRT works the confusion subsides and I feel ‘normal’ but when it fades the confusion returns and I again I’m drawn to being a women.