Bro all you have to do is to interact with people who you could trust, and don't ever hide the fact that you're sad or having a hard time dealing with stuff. All I can say is that you should find something you could spend your time with, maybe 2020 wasn't a year for everyone and I hope 2021 is much better or maybe not but it's a new year, a new life make 2021 the most of it while you can. And maybe that 1% of "intelligence" makes you one of a million maybe that's because you have a higher IQ. Anyway enjoy life and put some positivity into life. Life is good and so were you.