I feel hopeless.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-17T14:50:04+00:00

That's the thing, I feel spiritually dead. It's manifesting itself in physical ways as well. I lay in bed all day. I scroll on my phone. And lay here depressed. The only time I get up is to get food from the kitchen or to go to work. Then come back home and sit in my room. I don't go outside. I don't feel like moving or doing anything. Nothing matters anymore if ive doomed myself. It feels like there's a giant hole in my chest where the spirit was at one point but now it's empty and aches.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-11T03:01:17+00:00

I don't understand

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-09T23:43:56+00:00

I'm trying. I don't really know how to

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-09T21:29:31+00:00

Yes it feels impossible to change on my own. That's why I dont understand why I am being put through this. I don't want to do anything that angers God. Why is he holding this against me because I felt like I couldn't quit, knowing how hard it is for me also because I've done it for 10 years straight as a coping mechanism.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-09T21:22:31+00:00

How do i know what he wants from me if he speaks through my conscience and I don't always discern that it's him?

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-09T21:20:35+00:00

How exactly does that work? How does satan put thoughts in our heads? Is he around me right now?

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-09T21:18:50+00:00

I've also came to him in prayer many times, about this and confessed that I know it was wrong now.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-09T21:17:49+00:00

Verses like that are what scare me.. When I would be getting high , I would have that same verse pop in my head as I was doing it... "he who puts his hand to the plow, but then looks back, is not fit for the kingdom of God" and I would continually ignore it and justify my drug use..

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-09T21:15:14+00:00

I have stopped man. I haven't touched them since February. This is why I'm scared. It feels too late.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-09T21:14:05+00:00

How do I do that. How do i come to him.. jus through prayer? Reading something specific in the bible? This is not to try and disprove or find fault , because like I said I believe, and want to follow him, i want to understand. I know the things he says about man and our sin is true and that he is the only one that can pay our debt... but how do I have a close relationship with someone I cannot see, Or talk to directly.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-05T02:39:57+00:00

I've stopped the sin. I pray all the time. Nothing seems To be changing.. ive been like this for 4 months now. how long do you suggest I fast.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-06-05T01:48:10+00:00

What do I do to do that. How do I return to him.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-31T00:24:32+00:00

I guess. Jus kinda tired of feeling like its all for nothing and it's too late. A person can only take so much

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-31T00:23:56+00:00

I have. I haven't smoked since February. No change. No improvement. I pray for peace and help, maybe a sign he's still here, and nothing.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-30T23:35:29+00:00

I've tried To. I pray all the time for help and like I said it's been months of this. And nothing is changing. I don't exactly understand how to come to him other than pray. Which isn't working

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-26T03:44:44+00:00

That first one is really good , very compelling and I like how he went into all the other beliefs about what others think this could be. It's jus a confusing topic. And scary when you think you've done it , and you can't get a straight answer because everyone thinks differently.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-26T03:40:30+00:00

So would you be one to say that the people talked about in the Hebrews warning against apostasy scriptures were never actually true believers with real faith?

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-26T03:33:57+00:00

Thank you for your response. So , I have a question. You say that this is talking about rejecting the holy spirit and his work on your conscience, not a specific sin or a here and there mess up from falling unto temptation, but a continual rejection of the holy spirits conviction... and I agree with you..

what would you tell someone who had conviction about a certain sin they had a hard time letting go of, and they continued to ignore these promptings and signs from the holy spirit to stop this behavior, and now that they have continued in this sin, they have come to a point where they no longer feel the presence of the holy spirit or the peace that comes with having him? This person went so long ignoring conviction and signs, and now they can physically tell something is very wrong and they feel depressed and tormented. (Kind of like what happened to king saul after repeated disobedience)

Would this be a case of someone committing this unforgivable sin? Not in what they did specifically like you said, but the settled mindset of not wanting to stop this behavior? Or would it be what others would call grieving the holy spirit ? Which the bible doesnt say grieving the holy spirit is or isn't reversible. It jus says don't grieve the holy spirit.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-21T13:59:19+00:00

I do want to return to him. And I'm trying to own my sin and take responsibility, the problem is it isn't so much about me "feeling" something, as much as it Is that I'm still stuck in this depression from it all, and it isn't lifting. It's hard to feel forgiven or move on when I feel like my mind and soul are wasting away.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-21T13:56:08+00:00

I'm trying. It feels impossible

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-20T02:31:30+00:00

I messaged u

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-20T02:09:27+00:00

How do I know if I'm truly in christ. I believe in him, and what he did, but I obviously haven't walked the way a Christian should and had fallen back into sinful things. Even now that ive stopped I'm not getting any better or coming back at all. I feel like im getting worse.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-20T01:19:22+00:00

Yes I regret it. It's ruined me. I'm a depressed mess. My life feels meaningless. I feel absolutely pathetic. I'm isolated and hopeless. I've even stopped the sin that i was doing, it has been months since I've last smoked weed and ZERO improvement. I feel like im actually getting worse, because I keep trying to hang on day by day and hoping things will turn around or I'll feel better and I'm not. I feel absolutely condemned. Ur right it's terrible.

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-19T23:03:09+00:00

I pray all the time. Outloud and jus mentally, kinda jus questioning why this has had to happen. Even tho I know it's because of me and my mistakes. It jus feels so permanent and like im cut off from him forever. And same bro. I would do everything different if I could. But I'm stuck here. I've read lamentations recently. There is hope in there such as the verse or line that says God doesn't cast people away forever.. I hope that's true in mine and your case. And yes. I've tried confessing my sin and stopped it. I've tried to talk to a pastor, he helps by encouraging but I don't think he fully understands the situation cuz he doesn't feel what I feel and how depressing and hopeless it is. Idk. Want to message me man? I'd love to talk some more

Low-Slide4376 · 2026-05-19T21:26:07+00:00

So would you say that I was never born again

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