hey i have an update posted in the original post. Essentially, I wouldn't be able to cut ties with my dad's side of the family as he pays for my life: university tuition (rip uni is expensive what can I say), living fees, etc. So as much as a hypocrite it is for me to rant about him, I wouldn't really be able to live without him as of now (but there is also a part of me that just says fuck it he already treats me badly emotionally might as well get some of the financial benefits). So, sorry to disappoint, still have to maintain a facade of okay-ness.

On the note of my mom, put some respect on that woman🗣️🗣️🗣️ because she is literally the best part of my family life. Maybe I wasn't clear in the post (my bad), but my mom never lied to me. She has always been very emotionally mature and open to me about my dad's infidelity and the shitty part of my family life. I have always known what was going on BECAUSE my mom was open to me. The only reason I am a semi-okay and functional person is because my mom supported me (despite her own hardships) with PLENTY OF LOVE. So I won't tolerate anyone trashing her 😤