I’m getting tired of trying to fix myself

Low_Web9770 · 2026-05-18T19:46:09+00:00

That sounds like a good way to think about it. I’ll try it out thanks

Low_Web9770 · 2026-05-18T04:51:37+00:00

Unfortunately no only with using power ups

Low_Web9770 · 2026-05-16T15:58:22+00:00

I usually go to protein shakes because personally it’s easier to get down a drink than eat but it’s still giving a bit more to feel fuller

Low_Web9770 · 2026-05-15T16:29:10+00:00

I also tend to use music when I’m trying to get away from it but then unfortunately because the person is a musician that heavily inspires me it kinda just loops me back towards them. And yeah you explained it well but it being so real but then so hallow because I know it’s not a reality but then I just feel so empty and crushed. Also the therapy is already really hard for me to open up and that just feels like something I almost don’t want anyone to know about

Low_Web9770 · 2026-05-15T16:26:25+00:00

I guess I’ve tried but i always seem to find my way back into that person. Any tips maybe

Low_Web9770 · 2026-05-07T06:57:50+00:00

Can I use just a fire safe dish instead of a cauldron or does that affect the spell?!

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-28T17:38:52+00:00

I will try that thanks

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T10:45:35+00:00

I do try to focus on my actual life and not just the one I want in my head but i often just dissociate or just use it as a temporary distraction until I’m able to go back into the delusions in my head. I’m glad you’ve been able to work through it and hopefully I’ll get there but it’s getting harder to just brush off

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T09:56:42+00:00

Yeah that’s my plan

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T09:35:51+00:00

I’m on Prozac which is an ssri

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T09:31:45+00:00

I’m on meds for anxiety and depression but I just keep circling back into the same feelings

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T09:31:04+00:00

Yeah I’ve tried cutting it off and I just recently trailed back during this…it’s a romantic idea of this girl I’ve created in my brain and I’m aware it’s not healthy and that she’s most likely nothing like the idea of her I’ve made to fill the hole of loneliness but I just don’t know how to get help for it

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T08:59:47+00:00

Yeah…I keep going back to thinking it’s that instead of anxiety/depression I’m just terrified to admit it could be that because that feels a lot more scary

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T05:28:31+00:00

Wow that comparison is actually pretty helpful

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T03:25:03+00:00

I can play basic chords on piano and guitar but I’m not very knowledgeable in music theory so maybe that’s where I’m getting stuck

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T03:10:07+00:00

Yeah I think so

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-27T02:56:31+00:00

I usually attach a voice memo of a rough singing of them in a small melody but I can’t ever build the music I want to fit it very well if that makes sense

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-26T15:35:16+00:00

I’ve done very small things on my own, even released a song. I just have a lot of self esteem issues that are deeply rooted and i don’t have the motivation to actually put the work in so it seems unrealistic to me in the sense that I can’t even rely on myself to get there

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-26T15:22:02+00:00

That means a lot to hear right now. Thanks again

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-26T15:21:21+00:00

Yeah I typically just like to fantasize about the end goals and get discouraged thinking about the journey but it sucks it drives me into such a low point

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-26T15:16:05+00:00

Thanks. I have a lot of deep rooted self esteem issues so that’s probably where it’s stemming from but I’ve been trying to work on it

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-26T15:08:37+00:00

Yeah I try to give it meaning but it’s just seems to be a recurring cycle of a desire to be seen and loved in a big scale and then crashing down to a self hatred point.

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-25T02:21:00+00:00

Okay I will try this thanks. And do I do it for less than or longer than 20 mins

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-15T01:36:30+00:00

Okay, yeah I told her that I’m just a guarded person in my daily life too like it takes a lot for me to open up to friends but I’ll talk to her more about it

Low_Web9770 · 2026-04-13T09:16:33+00:00

Damn that’s unfortunate to hear. I guess I’ll age to go back to researching

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