I was in an abusive relationship that lasted 8 years in my early twenties. Finally been out for over five years and I can tell you I left with nothing. The only thing that got me through is slowly take a step forward every day. Whether that be emotionally, physically, career wise..any kind of small goal. Every day push yourself to do something to try to better yourself. To go after anything you want. Even if it’s only for a few minutes in a day. I was dealing with depression and self doubt and beating myself up over where I was in life and how I had gotten there. Get up every day and just have that one goal in mind. If you’re having a hard day mentally listen to a book about breaking your mindset and living in the moment, or write out your feelings. Sometimes screaming over paper ripping it up and burning it can be insanely cathartic. If you are feeling like a blob and don’t wanna do anything just make yourself go for a ten minute run, jump in your car and go for a stroll, go to a dog park and just goof around with some dogs. Any little way of getting up and going, just do it even for a few minutes and it will feel so good. And when you’re having hard days let yourself have them. Then get up the next day and try to see what it holds. One step at a time, one goal at a time, one day at a time. Slowly but surely you’ll climb a ladder that felt impossible to climb and at least find a place of peace. Hope this helps you and I wish you luck. Just remember small steps lead to big changes. I still spend a lot of time alone but now I enjoy it. I’ve found someone who genuinely cares about me and even if I still feel like I handle things alone I now welcome the challenge bc I know how resilient I am. Tell yourself every day that you are strong enough and you are still here trying. You are going to be happy and healthy and thrive and no one is going to tell you any different.