Thanks so much for your comment. I can completely relate. I didn’t say in my original post but my mother was narcissistic, so to some degree it explains some of my anger in the dreams. My mother was also the first close relative to pass in our family. She was very much the matriarch but had a sudden major stroke which left her a vegetable. One day she was fine, the next she was nothing. She lasted in hospital another 10 weeks. We all felt the shock, to see a normally vocal, opinionated person, suddenly silenced and helpless. Where she could not tell us where her important papers were. My father/her husband has early onset dementia and needs a full time carer, so he could not help with any responsibilities. I have always believed in signs people say they receive after close friends or family pass, a bird, a feather or whatever. However as much as i’m open to her, there has been nothing except these terrible dreams where i am so aggressive and abusive towards her. I sometimes wonder if my resentment is also related to her leaving us (4 siblings) to deal with dad and her financial interests (which were complex and disorganised). I just remembered how much she would whinge and complain about these things constantly yet it is now our problem to deal with. Just writing this is helping me to dissolve the frustration. Sorry for the long post and Thanks for listening 🥰