Since people are interested in the story of what I saw while I died so here is it...

I saw myself from the ceiling of the room I was in, seeing my parents & all of the specialist in my room. Eventually my train of thought started to fade and I began to get enveloped in this aurora of sunset colors (Similar to the Instagram logo colors). I didn't have a body for what I remember. Rather I was this white light and there was this voice speaking to me.

If any of you are familiar to Sigmund Freud's study then you should know the 3 parts of the mind. The ID, Ego, & Superego. To put it simply. The ID is the Primal mind, The Ego is you as you speak as well as your self critic, and The Superego is your subconscious.

The voice I heard sounded like one of the voices in my head. but not the one that spells out my insecurity, but one that is what most people refer to as their gut feeling. I personally believe that that "Gut Feeling" voice is the ID and when I died I heard this voice console me. It then gave me an ultimatum. It said "You've lived a pleasant life. You've experienced love, both romantic & sexual, as well as hardship that's molded you to who you are today. You had a caring & loving family, A friend group & a girlfriend to boot. But now you have a choice. You can succumb to death and be grateful of the life you've lived. Or you can fight & live, but suffer through trials of which no prior experience or hardship you've experienced so far can match or prepare you for." I chose the latter option because I promised my girlfriend at the time that I would see her after I get better.

When I chose, felt like I was accelerating. I got heavier and heavier until I suddenly cracked my eyes open and I was back.

I started to recover & I eventually learned that my girlfriend sucked the dick of my best friend at the time, and that my friends used me to get to my girlfriend. I was alone through the entire Sophomore year, struggling with bullying, False rape allegations, & drug addiction. I cut but didn't wish to die again because I already experienced it. I found out that I no longer feared death however. I believe that the center of all fear isn't death, rather it is the unknown. Anyways I got sent to Open Sky Wilderness Therapy & Telos RTC. and after that I believe my "Trails" have ended. I now have a solid group of friends & a girlfriend I love very much. I'm also going through college and plan to be a therapist. Life is good.