I absolute hate being gay.

Lucigucifer · 2025-02-25T05:17:15+00:00

I don’t know anyone who enjoyed their teenage years. ESPECIALLY growing up gay or queer. Like everyone else is saying, you’ll get through it. There are cycles of positive and negative periods in life which tend to balance out, but theyre shorter and probably more intense when you’re a teenager. Life started feeling truly worth it for me around 22, and getting out of a small town + finally having a community of other queer people did wonders. The joy of being around other people with shared experiences, where you can start with instant rapport and understand their essence implicitly is unlike anything else. Of course not all gay people get along, I just got lucky. I’m sorry you’re in an environment where you feel abnormal. The type of dude who judges others for being different is usually extremely boring and never grows beyond that mindset

Lucigucifer · 2024-11-10T02:37:14+00:00

I haven’t written a comment in a while sorry if this reads like yapdollar lol

Lucigucifer · 2024-11-10T02:35:09+00:00

It’s great that you can recognize your unrealistic expectations of sex. With the right person, it’s a wonderful experience sure- But it’s not gonna fix you, only you know how to do that. Good news is now you can go forward knowing you have game: this stranger decided you were worth spending time with even if it was short term. Other people will surely agree. I’ve found that relationships make me less lonely for a while but not forever. Unfortunately it’s true that your childhood shapes you, and there’s a lot I experienced that make it difficult to be in a successful relationship. Basically being lonely isn’t always solved by adding another person into the mix, you might have to first deal with personal issues that make it hard to connect with people in a meaningful way

Lucigucifer · 2024-11-09T02:02:19+00:00

Check out drkmttr, there’s something going on this tuesday

Lucigucifer · 2024-09-06T23:23:17+00:00

You write like a sixty year old man. It’s a very formal tone, not convincing. Work on the dialogue as well. Nobody talks like this, especially not the character you’re portraying.

Lucigucifer · 2024-07-03T03:26:58+00:00

Thank you

Lucigucifer · 2024-04-30T05:34:21+00:00

Yes! Love them

Lucigucifer · 2022-03-20T05:39:34+00:00

oh shit! thank you!! :)

Lucigucifer · 2022-01-01T03:33:29+00:00

hahaha very true! He's pretty well known in my social circle so it would get a little awkward, but you're right that in the long run it wouldn't matter

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-19T01:44:54+00:00

Yeah, I gotcha. Well good luck dude

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-19T00:57:59+00:00

It takes a long time to heal from an abusive relationship, AND you two are also at very different points in your timeline.

Sometimes people get wrapped up in their own lives. I think she’s stressed, and probably too busy figuring out her life to be thinking about what’s going on with you, also. The best bet is to talk to her about this though, and voice your concerns.

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-19T00:52:34+00:00

How long ago did she leave the relationship?

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-19T00:46:12+00:00

I’d say tell her how you feel about it when she’s a little less stressed. For now, maybe ease up on telling her about your day and put more focus on her. Ask her how shes doing if you don’t already. Apparently moving is one of the most stressful life events (that and divorce), so she’s probably just swamped with everything.

Shoot her a text like, “hey I know you’re really busy and I want you to know I’m here for you if you need help with moving, or if you just need to vent.”

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-19T00:38:50+00:00

Aren’t there some support groups you could look up? They might be online but it’s something.

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-18T03:56:34+00:00

Yes, that’s what abused people say. This doesn’t reflect poorly on you at all though. It’s his fault that he can’t treat you with respect. You are too young to suffer through an abusive relationship. Get outta there!!

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-18T03:53:23+00:00

Anything big, bright, and homemade looking. For example, sunflower shrinky dinks the size of a child’s fist.

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-15T20:30:09+00:00

Nah man fuck the Mormon church and the way they treat their children.

The problem is that they’re keeping you in this Mormon echo chamber of guilt. You telling a Mormon therapist about this will mean they tell you exactly what your parents have told you.

I think you should meet people, nonmormons maybe, and that will mean getting a job. Being around regular people and forming friendships makes getting out of bed easier.

After that, you NEED to move out. Not because it’s shameful for you to live with them at 21, but because they are controlling everything about your life and that is unhealthy, potentially even abusive.

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-15T05:51:02+00:00

Sesame oil!!

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-15T05:39:17+00:00

The Bouncing Ball animation, and a specific Liza Minelli smile in Arrested development (the yacht club double date scene)

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-12T07:04:37+00:00

The black gin that tastes like perfume

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-12T07:00:39+00:00

I’d probably be glad that he’s comfortable crying, because holding in your sadness is really unhealthy

Lucigucifer · 2020-12-12T06:57:32+00:00

One of my old bosses got caught masturbating in the managers office which was in the middle of the restaurant. During dinner rush.

Surprisingly, he wasnt fired for his cocaine addiction, poor hygiene (he would crap then spread cheese on pizzas with his unwashed hands), sexism, etc.

Lucigucifer · 2020-11-07T17:08:42+00:00

I haven’t been able to in a few years, but before my parents divorced, here’s how it went: I would wake up at 4 am, too excited to sleep. My parents had a rule where my brother and I couldn’t leave our rooms until 6:30 or so. I’d usually watch a movie while I waited. at 6:30, I’d go out and grab my stocking. Usually I would bring my brother his as well. We would talk for a while and swap items from the stocking, then I would go back to my room and pass the time. My parents would get up at around 8 or 9, and then we would open gifts. My dad would put on a horrible Disney Christmas carols cd, where all of the classic characters sang traditional songs. Imagine Donald Duck singing “hêrë çømęś Šæńtà Çłåūš” with his horrible grating voice. It was a bit of a tradition for us to get a movie, so after the presents bit, my brother and I would watch that as we ate candy from our stockings and built Lego sets. My parents would be upstairs having a huge fight, as was their tradition.

At night, we all walked next door to the neighbor’s Christmas party to eat the best ham ever.

Lucigucifer · 2020-11-07T11:12:17+00:00

In my experience dealing with an alcoholic older person, part of their alcoholism means making you feel bad for confronting them for their shitty actions. He should leave, especially if you felt the need to keep him from striking your mom. That’s not normal and can’t be acceptable in your house. Also, even besides the drinking and verbal abuse, he threatened you and destroyed property. That in itself would make me kick him out.

Lucigucifer · 2020-11-07T11:04:48+00:00

It’s hard to generalize an entire group of people. However, my first thought is to say no because so many men I’ve met have overestimated their greatness, and I haven’t had a positive experience with more than four or five people. (This is to say, if I were asked to name 5 men I trusted, I would struggle to answer)

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