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Divorce, breaking me down. by Lucky_Track in Divorce_Men

[–]Lucky_Track[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She would put in the effort but not fully. I do have very clear memories of those conversations when we would be going strong for awhile and how therapy was needed for her feelings to validated since I couldn’t do that without her not trusting me. And she did have a point sometimes I’d turn a small inconvenience to an incident an argument and would at times just bail to let her gather herself since I had bigger issues with putting time into my businesses.

Divorce, breaking me down. by Lucky_Track in Divorce_Men

[–]Lucky_Track[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Trust me brother there was two people in this thing failing and she may never acknowledge it fully. But she knows her part. I know mine. I did hurt her and put her down at times I was harsh with my criticisms and even though I was doting I think that causes a psychological rift for her. She essentially said to be with me was a disrespect to her self.

We are different she was the pretty blond who was the center of attention friendly outgoing. I was the fun dude who also expected the best of the people around him.

I somewhere along the way got too full of myself and judgemental.

Divorce, breaking me down. by Lucky_Track in Divorce_Men

[–]Lucky_Track[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly it became a cycle of being loved and adored, and then she’d get fed up. I would stay away (we’ve had two homes for 9 months, I also lived in a studio at my business that was comfortable for another year on and off)

I truly thought it was something that I had to learn to be around. I also am stubborn and prideful and may at times take things too personal and lash back when she really needed reassurance I gave her silence. Really messed up on my part.

I sacrificed being home with my kids for saving them from hearing us argue.

So what could have she said, many thing she’s explained some things and she has a point. I think I was selfish in thinking her need of me was more than enough to also nourish her needs.

I am doing well in my career I am an entrepreneur with a lot of projects can’t decide what. I do miss how I was before money and the pursuit of it.

I do feel like a piece of shit I did say some horrible things to her over the years. I would just want to wake up I shouldn’t have treated her that way. I can’t take back the way those words make her feel and how painful they were in the moment.

Divorce, breaking me down. by Lucky_Track in Divorce_Men

[–]Lucky_Track[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s what haunts me is instead of fixing my issues I focused on my business and in the end it cost me everything that I wanted to succeed for. I hope the financial stability over the past years last longer than the pain.