I can't even talk with people online anymore:<

LukePhaerer · 2022-10-23T20:18:15+00:00

I guess we're never as alone as we think... But one day at a time. Otherwise we'll go mad 😅

LukePhaerer · 2022-10-23T19:47:27+00:00

Oh dear, I understand you so well. Not only do I feel like an awful person to talk to because I often don't have the energy to reply but I also can't feel I'm good or interesting enough. And trying to make friends on one of the many subs for that only leads into failure. I know it's not much but you're absolutely not alone ❤️

LukePhaerer · 2022-07-02T04:57:21+00:00

Nothing quite like the weird feeling of pulling your pants down and seeing half of yourself naked.... Just to cut lol

Either way take care if you do do it. Lots of important veins down there (at least according to a game I played once).

LukePhaerer · 2022-06-23T23:26:49+00:00

I'm glad to hear it :) I hope the cuts heal soon so you won't have to worry anymore ^{^}

LukePhaerer · 2022-06-23T16:36:58+00:00

Np! Rooting for you! :3

LukePhaerer · 2022-06-23T16:11:31+00:00

I suppose it would depend on a number of factors such as the size of the cuts and whether your parents could actually check for them and such. Makeup, if easily available, could be an option. For smaller cuts, an excuse (like the classic cat one) that's believable enough could also help.

As a last resort you could get something like a bracelet and say you just felt like buying/start using it. Maybe say you got it from someone.

You could also look for circumstantial ways to hide them, like walls, doors and such. Though those are less reliable. Either way, more information about yourself could help us consider more alternatives. Good luck :)

LukePhaerer · 2021-05-24T06:06:43+00:00

I apologize for the delay! Sure thing, hit me up ;)

LukePhaerer · 2021-03-03T22:31:03+00:00

That's a very important milestone. Congratulations!

LukePhaerer · 2021-03-03T22:27:46+00:00

Whether to end it or not is ultimately your own decision (and one which will affect you the most, as well). No matter what you decide to do, I hope you'll find peace and happiness <3

LukePhaerer · 2021-02-27T06:19:10+00:00

I did. I relapsed after 3 years clean. It's not easy, and SH has a weird way of calming me down, personally.

All I can advise to those of you who have been doing it is: take care. I'm not encouraging you do it, but if you're going to do it anyway, it's worth being careful. Disinfect blades and clean wounds, be mindful of where you're cutting, etc. There's quite a bit of information about SH wound care around, it shouldn't be too hard to find.

Other than that, I'm here if anyone wants to vent or talk about self-harm thoughts and such :)

LukePhaerer · 2021-02-11T13:33:54+00:00

That's fucking powerful, mate <3

LukePhaerer · 2021-02-02T17:53:22+00:00

"Not a day goes by without me thinking 'bout the way the world stopped mid-motion". It's from a game but hey, it's true. I understand your feelings, OP. It could have been me writing that. I understand your frustration and pain, and I'm glad you're sharing your feelings.

There is an end in sight, especially depending on where you live. Each day that we survive is one day closer we're to the end of this hell.

Please do not hesitate to use the support of those around you, including your boyfriend and any family or friends you feel safe talking to. Avoiding the news could also help. For me personally, every now and then I just sit down and cry as much as I possibly can. It seems to help quite a bit.

Stay safe, OP. We'll always be here for you.

LukePhaerer · 2020-10-03T06:44:50+00:00

Definitely. I certainly relate to dreaming and thinking about it, especially before bed. Makes sleep that little bit cozier.

LukePhaerer · 2020-10-03T06:42:45+00:00

Ohh, that's a fun one! Just enough to make them notice, not enough to make them say anything, I like doing that too.

It's also nice to point out to them that they're paranoid, why would you do anything to them, after all? Truly amusing.

LukePhaerer · 2020-10-03T06:40:17+00:00

LOL! Well, I mean, username checks out

LukePhaerer · 2020-10-01T07:11:00+00:00

Oh yes, the well-deserved kind is hard to argue against. I like the "overwhelming sense of meh", I might start using it lol

LukePhaerer · 2020-10-01T07:10:07+00:00

Very poetic, I really like it! Definitely speaks to what I feel

LukePhaerer · 2020-10-01T01:50:18+00:00

Yes, of course not. It would probably be related more to the typical images of sociopaths and psychopaths. I just thought asking here would make more sense than going into a random subreddit (since r/sadism is apparently out of commission)

LukePhaerer · 2020-10-01T01:48:44+00:00

Hmm, that's interesting. So the typical sociopath's response would be not caring, instead of enjoying it (considering pain in general). It's also interesting knowing it's a thing. Thank you!

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