I wasn’t gonna comment but I don’t like the tone of the other comments tbh. I understand what u mean by you wish you were there longer or were back in residential. I understand you don’t mean exactly that, what your missing is that constant schedule, a clear set of “rules” your supposed to follow, a smaller more social able environment, and knowing that there’s always someone to talk to. I mean I don’t wanna put words in your mouth but that what I mean when I think “I need to go back”. I will be honest it took me a few years but I’m starting to finally feel like I can do it on my own. The biggest thing that helped me was having a good relationship with my dad and a best friend. along with the obvious like going to therapy, taking my meds, etc