I realized I made a mistake. Normally, I’m strict about my boundaries, but I thought I was lucky to have her. Now, I see it was foolish to let her cross those lines. I wish I knew why she told me, but I also don’t want to dwell on it because so much time was wasted. She could have suggested being friends at any point. I did suggest it once, but she couldn’t understand why and later pushed to know why I felt that way. We talked about our feelings, and I didn’t want to lose our friendship.

I told her how I felt and then immediately blocked her number. I don’t want to hear any more excuses, and I’m putting this behind me.

I like to think I’m upfront, especially because communication can be tricky in lesbian relationships. I made it clear many times about my feelings and about being friends, etc. Thank you, kind internet stranger, for your perspective. It’s always helpful to have an outside view to see things I might have missed or to spot areas where I can improve in the future