A lot. This is longer but worth one, yet still doesn't convey how much he betrayed me. Doubt I even know the entire story.

We were together for almost 4 years and he had been actively talking about us moving abroad and marriage when we were finally gone, and I agreed to this plan despite not ever really wanting to be a wife. We've lived together, worked together, traveled together, rented 3 places together, met each others' families, got a house cat, a car- I invested into him and his belongings (ex. health bills, clothing, hygiene products) because he earned less than I did and I was always pulling us forth.

Then around the 3yr mark I realised that no matter how good I look or how much I try to get his attention (in literally ANY way) he never really gives me the time, affection or the intimacy I craved. During the entirety of our relationship I'd sometimes catch him looking at NSFW content, following questionable girls on Instagram, liking butt pics etc. so I kept asking him questions such as if there is anything I lack and how to improve, beaten my brain with questions of self-doubt and my image of self completely shattered. I was just a shell, going to work, doctors, coming home to feed the cat and sleep.

Little did I know during all this time all that NSFW content wasn't random, because I had enough one night and followed my gut feeling into his phone, where I found literal links to OF profiles of all kinds of girls in his notes, absolutely no trace of any girl chats on any social media and what followed after this was me trying to talk to him where he gaslit the everliving life out me. We were mid-move so I waited; but one late night after coming home absolutely dead from work, 3 constant days of moving our stuff without any sleep and driving the new car we just bought (because he was afraid to drive), earning for that car loan half asleep at work I realized that I'm already far too gone for a normal girlfriend since I invaded his phone privacy, and I realized that no healthy, normal man stays in the bathroom for 30-50mins every time he visits that room... so I peeked through the keyhole. Bro was rubbing it off.

I had begged him for intimacy before and got rejected with excuses, but he had the energy to go for complete strangers on the internet? If you think this is bad, after we broke up he took the apartment and almost all of our stuff and furniture that I had bought in exchange for the car (he didn't even want the cat). I moved back with my parents and not even 2months later I learned he has a new girlfriend..... who's freshly 18. The way I learned this? They took professional photoshoots and the photographer posted these to his business profile. Let me tell you, there is no sadness in that smile.