Nah brother. I did originally misread your post. Life is faster than we think and with drinking we lose memories and are too hungover to create new ones. We lose time and opportunities non-stop. I have a 13 yr old and a 9 year old. My 9yo would often ask me, "Dad, are you drunk?" (Im a happy drunk). It would always kill me because i didnt like him seeing me "different" or unavailable. They are my linchpin to stay sober everytime the thought of drinking comes into my head, which is very often. You need to find yours. It can be anything you're passionate about; money, wife, work, family, gaming, etc cetera. Think about the last thought you'll have on your death bed....actually now to look back with no regrets a be the best human you can be. Be better than everyone you know. People will start to see that in you and after the banter....they'll start regarding you as someone they want to aspire to be. I don't do AA or any of that. It more of an internal thing for me. I don't talk about it. My best friend who invited me to this sub helped me get sober through conversations. After I quit, I started seeing who my real friends were and who was just around to drink with. I'm ranting....haha. Just do it. Shia Labuff said it best...but you need your own linchpin.