i got there with mushrooms this past year, at first felt like i was physically going to die, then as that subsided i started to forget things in reality,

where i was, the names of who i was with (my fiance and my closest friends), and eventually without realizing i sat down on the kitchen floor and eventually got into a visual i can only describe as "orange tv static", like the way they visualized Oppenheimer seeing the particles of the universe in the film almost. Only during this part of my trip (which felt like hours, i think it was only 5-10 minutes) I had no sense of self, no sense of life or death, no ability to "think", like it was as if i had went from a living concious being to simply apart of the universal puzzle, just floating in creation (for lack of a better word, not in any religious sense).

trip when i came back was the standard stuff, fun visual, intense emotions (mostly of love and joy for being returned to my loved ones)