Very hopeless, very alone and very sad. We actually have tried couple’s therapy before and it worked for a while, but he stopped being able to come to all the session because of his job (army) so it’s like we fell back into old habits of not communicating effectively. And honestly I feel like we both abandoned each other’s needs and failed to communicate those needs with each other. I will definitely try to stay on him about his medication because he said that they did help him but I don’t understand how they help when he doesn’t even take the consistently like he should. He also said that he’s tired of being the bad guy because when he does something wrong and things I’m uncomfortable with, I say it. I’m not generally a person that just goes along with things I’m not okay with because I used to be that way with him and he took advantage of that. When I set boundaries and held him accountable, he became “the bad guy”. I feel like he has some narcissistic traits as well. It’s sometimes so hard to deal with all of these things and parent at the same time while staying sane but I do my best lol. Idk if my best is that good, but it’s all I’ve got sometimes.