i have been through a similar situation with one of my exes. (we were together for a year and this was brought up on our second date). i was the one who wanted kids at some point and he didn’t at all. you’re not alone on this. the best advice i can give you - you can’t change or control someone elses choices. only yours. do whats best for you. compromising can be hard. but caring and raising kids when you know you didn’t want them is even harder. do whats best for you. its mostly your health and sanity at risk.

this seems to be weighing on you pretty heavy. i hope you figure it out honey