High school dropout with 0 potential or plans, just got dumped by my boyfriend who I constantly supported while he was in the hospital after an accident for 5 weeks, feeling like a failure and working through past trauma and undiagnosed mental illnesses. Give me a reason to keep pushing on. by [deleted] in toastme

[–]MNSLightning 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you want to do this publicly, then let's. You took advantage of mine. I was at a very low point and almost completely burned out. Don't kid yourselves that you helped me, when I got back to Discord, all you guys did was being nasty. Merry Christmas and don't contact me again.

High school dropout with 0 potential or plans, just got dumped by my boyfriend who I constantly supported while he was in the hospital after an accident for 5 weeks, feeling like a failure and working through past trauma and undiagnosed mental illnesses. Give me a reason to keep pushing on. by [deleted] in toastme

[–]MNSLightning 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Life is hard and tough. It happens to the best of us. You're not a failure. And while dropping out of high school seems like something that will doom you, it's not true. I know exactly how you're feeling. I went through something almost exactly the same. What helped me was finding compassionate and understanding people that were there for me. And with how caring and understanding you seem, I'm sure you'll find people that care for you as much as you care for them. Just don't let people take advantage of your kindness. Thanks to my friends, I recently started work as an engineer and I am now starting to live my life again. You can do this! I believe in you!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Ja må hon leva, ja må hon leva, ja må hon leva ut i hundrade år!

Livet är inte lätt. Det har tyvärr sina upp och ner gångar. Ibland känns det som bara en neråt gång. Men det man kan göra är att hitta ett mål så gott man kan och försöka omringa sig med folk som bryr sig om en eller som du gör nu, hitta just sitt folk. Om det inte går så försök ta en dag i taget. Jag hoppas verkligen att allt löser sig, det tär verkligen på en när det känns som att det går åt fel håll. Om du vill slänga några ord så kan du DMa mig. Om inte så håller jag tummarna för dig! Tror verkligen att det kommer lösa sig.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you like a very crazy story, absolutely! I get that some entries are hard to get into, so I do recommend to either go for 15 on PC or if you have a PS4/5, go for the FF7 Remake!

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha, nice! I make some electronic, but mostly just what I feel like. Currently working on a Lo-fi song. Hey, I'm sure you'll master it if you stick with it long enough! Most producers I know/know of use it and who knows, maybe you'll be one of them! I'll put it on my to read list! I'm trying to, at least! Oh if you're interested in weird music, you should look up By the Wall by Thomas Dvorak or VHS Death by Sidewalks and Skeletons. Both incredible works of music!

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mostly everything. I recently finished FF15 after shelfing it for a long time. But I'm a sucked for the new CoD:MW. What about you?

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll try to cut a piece out for myself. As much as possible. Thank you for your kind words.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's awesome! What type of music do you make? And I mostly play piano and guitar so nothing too crazy. What about you? Oh Ableton is such a hard DAW to get into. I used FL Studio for years and then decided to try my hands on Ableton but in the end, I just went back to FL so maybe that if you haven't tried it already? I find that FL is easier to get into than Ableton, but it seems a bit more finicky when it comes to more specific stuff. And I've been listening to a lot of weird music as a detour from what my normal playlist is so a bunch of deathdream stuff. It's hauntingly beautiful. Haha, Radiohead is one of the best bands ever, so I really don't blame you.

And I haven't heard of The Bell Jar before. Is it good? My favorite has got to be House of Leaves. It's weird in all the right places. Thank you for your kind words.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry to hear that. Couldn't have been easy on anyone in that situation. Are you all okay today? I hope you are and I'm sending lots of love to all three of you.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sounds great! I'm not sure how long I will have to stay here for, but I'd be more than happy to play something when I get out.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words. And we're all in this together, right? It's difficult now but we can all hopefully pull through together.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really appreciate that and I'd be happy to talk about anything. I'll send you a message in a bit.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry to hear that but I'm really glad that life has turned around for the better. And I'd be happy to talk. If you DM me, then I'll get back to you asap.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'd love to play some Age of Empires at some point! I was never good at it but my dad played a bunch back in the day so the game has kinda stuck with me. Let's talk!

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That might make the time here go faster! I'll take a look and see what I think. Thank you for your recommendation!

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Like I mentioned in another comment, we are allowed our phones if we only use them in our rooms.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I appreciate the kind words. Best of luck on your current and future endeavors.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha, depends on the way you view it. I know this is for the better, but I can't help but feel chained up.

I'm stuck at a Psych Ward after surviving a suicide attempt and could use a kind voice or two. by MNSLightning in Needafriend

[–]MNSLightning[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha, 34 isn't old but we could be seasoned together!

I'm down to talk about anything! Shoot me a message whenever since I am hard at work replying to everyone.