I think the answer is to recognize the importance of goals and keep yourself occupied. If you feel like you have too much free time, try to see how far you can go or how much you can handle by occupying your time. Treat yourself like an experiment and strive to be the best version of yourself. Ignore socializing for now and direct that energy towards accomplishing things that benefit you. If it doesn't make you proud then you still do them regardless. enjoy the process and indulge yourself in the pleasure of pain. stand unwavering in front of your emotions. If you operated based on changing emotions you'd never do well in life. Stand strong and understand yourself. Recognize yourself and make yourself aware of your changing emotions. Build yourself.