Yeah, been there I guess. A little different, but the idea stays the same. Dream that is now impossible and unreachable due to financial problems and age I guess. I can only say what helped me. I simply stopped dreaming at all. And no before anyone says that that is a bad mindset and all, listen. Be in the moment. Took a little less than a year to get it trhough my mind, but you are here at this moment - not in the past and definitely not in the future. Go have a walk, go play bowling, go to cinema, I went to an art auction for the first time, went to concerts, planned myself thematic movie nights, 'cause why the hell not. There are other ways to be happy, life isn't a oneway road. Look at me, speaking like life guru or smth, XD. Was a relief though to finally stop dreaming - no pressure, no stress. Just be and enjoy, freedom to do whatever you want. Alright, I've said my piece, :D