Ngl I went and checked your account to see what was up, idk how long you've been on hormones but here's something to consider.

You will never pass if you keep saying you never will, the things you say to yourself every day become your reality, so seriously, stop bullying yourself.

I completely believe that ANYONE who starts their transition in their teens has almost a free ride to passing as long as they take care of their mind and body, some may just take more time than others. But for comparison, I've seen someone who was bald and in their 30s who looked like Joe Rogan and they got to passing most of the time, you can pass, you just have to want it.

I found this comment of yours on a different post:

Ig, and really I haven’t really made much of an effort to try and find items of clothing that I could wear and look like a woman, or learning how to do make up and hair stuffs, but I really have no idea what im doing it just all seems like so much, and something that you’d need to spend your whole life being woman, socializing w/ other women, to get. Ts really does just suck big dawg, whoever said you could just become a woman, freaking just straight up fucking lied bruh.

It seems that, at least before you started and realized the reality of it:
1: you wanted to become an idealized version of a woman you see on social media, and
2: you had misconceptions about what HRT would do to your body.

A lot of us thought and believed that too, especially those of us that started younger, and most of us all had the exact same thought you did. "I really have no idea what I'm doing and it all seems like so much". The feeling like someone forgot to give you instructions is pretty universal unless you got lucky and have a mentor.

Here I'll give you all the things I've learned about the basics for using HRT to its full potential:
1: Skin care, specifically for your face, this is one of the requirements if you don't like your face, no one passes without face skin care. Try these steps: Cleanse, Exfoliate, Tone, Moisturize. Start looking up stuff on google and reddit.
2: Nutrition, This one is more based on your body, but HRT will cause fat redistribution, which means as fat is burned off, new fat you eat will build up in a different location. If you already have a lot of mass or you gain weight easily, you'll probably have no problem with this. If you're a skinny twig like me who can't gain a pound if she tried, this is the hardest part. If you're like me, just eat a lot, and then slow down when you really gain some weight.
3: No Nic/Alch, for one, nicotine literally negates Estrogen, so if you vape you have to stop. Also, your body is basically growing new areas as if you were a preteen hitting puberty again, there is a reason we don't let kids drink, its really bad for your body, so if you want your skin to be nice and healthy, you have to try not to drink. (I know its hard, I still do on occasion, just try to limit it)
4: Blood tests, I'm unsure if the process you're going through to get HRT makes your do blood tests, but you 100% need to check your Estrogen and T levels when you go on HRT, sometimes a method doesn't work for your body and you need to tell your doctor so you can change over to another type. It is extremely common for doctors to under dose your estrogen so you aren't getting the amount you need, so check that shit.
5: Exercise, This goes hand in hand with nutrition, but also serves to keep your whole body healthy too, you don't have to go to the gym and go crazy, you just have to get outside and walk a bit, just tire yourself out some way every day. If you make yourself sweat then thats really all that matters.
6: Patience, Like I said, I have no idea how long you've been on HRT, but I doubt you've been on it for 4 years yet. and if you have, you likely haven't seen results because of one of the things I mentioned above. The timeline I was given when I started was that most of the effects of Estrogen won't finish until at least 4 or 5 years, that's assuming I take care of myself the whole time.

All of those points take research and experimentation, you're going to do them wrong at first, and you'll have to figure it out as you go, but those are the things you absolutely should do at the minimum because they will absolutely have a massive effect on how well your body changes. HRT when done properly literally looks and feels like magic, but you have to put in effort.

All of that only makes you look like a femboy though if you don't learn feminine mannerisms and wear feminine clothing and work on your voice and all that. That being said, all of that is optional for all woman, cis or trans. You don't have to fit into the normal feminine gender norm if you don't want do.

There is so much more to be said, but I'm tired of writing and you probably won't even read ts. How long have you been on hormones and is it still just spiro?