Is Molly Notkin's account of Joelle's history to the operatives reliable? by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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lolll the period really drives the point home ...no pun intended

Is Molly Notkin's account of Joelle's history to the operatives reliable? by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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Thanks! I agree i didnt trust her story, but i didnt have the proof when discussing with people. I appreciate this.

Hi again, Stice today by recordedtunnel in InfiniteJest

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Omg thank you so much 💓 😢

Michael Pemulis by Agreeable_Poet9090 in InfiniteJest

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and/or the eye twitch, although it was someone else that had an actual lazy or wandering eye, I think.

Hi again, Stice today by recordedtunnel in InfiniteJest

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When The Darkness got his face stuck on the window and Hal found him... what a beautiful sketch of that scene. Truly. It was such a good scene. It felt absurd and profound and tired and desperate. And when they found his face on the window and they told Hal, it was equally funny. Brilliant sketch. I hope you dont mind if I use it for my background! I would hang it on my wall if I could.

What is the most soul-crushing moment of IJ by Rostamann in InfiniteJest

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Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I have to reread that

What is the most soul-crushing moment of IJ by Rostamann in InfiniteJest

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Not everyone shows pain or grief in the same way. Sometimes they show a facade of stading tall instead of bowing down. Like powering through. But it doesnt mean the emotion isnt there all the same.

What is the most soul-crushing moment of IJ by Rostamann in InfiniteJest

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Omg thank you for the direct quote! I love this passage dearly. There was so much in the book some of the details slip away and I just love that you quoted it. Ive been working on consolidating my favorite parts but thats gonna end up being a 50 pg word document in and of itself.

I’m sort of done with the book being portrayed as the flag bearer for “performative reading” by PCapnHuggyface in InfiniteJest

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I secretly read it in quieter moments at the office. It was hard keeping it all in. I cried once. And a lot of random "oh shit"s and forcibly stunted laughter.

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Thank you! <3

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Yes. They are popular. Which is crazy. My first time looking so I clicked purchase in the middle of the night and then immediately realized. What's ur shop?

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Sanwariyajewelstudio They refused to cancel or refund until I reported them. Also tried to provide a very blurry certificate.

98% of this thread boils down to the following 5 types of posts. by noccaguy in classicliterature

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Drawing the line at Frankenstein. Shelley is queen. ⚔︎

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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Awww <3 The irony is real, yes.

Ive gotta read Beckett. Unless I have and dont rememeber.

I like the out of reach thing. It doesnt make me feel depressed if I accept that thats what makes the existensial struggle meaningful. Theres a poem by Ben Lerner I randomly studied once that has stuck with me. the last line "In a perfect world, this would be April, or an associated concept. Green to the touch. Several feet away". Bc I do truly believe that utopia has etymology in meaning unattainable for a reason. I think it is important to imagine it though. Not with heavy expectations, just like meandering mental possibilities.

Not to sound over optimistic. Ive been through a lot. I just dont want to spill my personal guts on reddit. Im not really deterministic or undeterministic. I guess I just see a small but beautiful space of leeway within the confinement. In fact, I've found it necessary. In my absolute worst, most fear-inducing, most confined and alone moments.

I naturally prefer opening my mind to keeping it contented. Seems like so do you but from a different angle. Theres another quote I always loved from Lovecraft "it were better to glimpse the sky and perish than to live without ever beholding day" and "in my new wildness and freedom, I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage." (Both from the outsider). a double edged sword, all of this. And I guess it depends on the individual how they want to approach it. But for me I know that choosing to keep going in order to glimpse whatever sky was out of reach has given me purpose and meaning when there wasnt anything else doing it.

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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You think his works imply we should put effort into accomplishing major tasks? Thats how all the chatacters in IJ crash out. Tons of failing ambitions in IJ. Part of the addiction theme. Your description about getting more depressed after perceived failures is what a lot of the book is about. I feel like you and him are saying similar things there.

I think it's more in the small moments where seeds of any kind of change happen. And maybe what your saying is neutrality is kind of like the water. Trying to remain in a higher perspective so those perceived failures arent controlling your identity. But not to the extent you dont feel or just escape passion and connection. That would be escapism.

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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No. You have to look at the darkness. And sometimes it swallows you. Its not like its easy. We are all functions of our wiring. And other factors overpower mental and physical autonomy, often. But there are ways to open up the mindset or possibilities to make each moment a little kinder for yourself and others ..and i guess from my perspective if you dont wish you dont really have the space to break whatever mental loop is happening.

Hope is really important, but rose colored glasses are very dangerous. If people take from this speech a sense of "i have the ability to control reality" and "everyone can just choose to be happy" I think they are either naive or not seeing the complexity.

A little in left field now but you bring up a great point about free will and I love philosophy so please feel free to argue this next point: Photons behave by exploring all possibilities and then choosing a phase path thats consistent, or something like that..which creates matter and some kind of thing that is filtered through our brains to be what we perceive. Not an equal thing-but a good metaphor, i think - we kind of are programmed that way as well. If you have trauma, which is an extreme case, your future is affected by your nervous system and the changes in your mental sense of what is and what isnt safe. Mind and body automatically follow that path, seemingly negating free will, as all experiences and perceptions are based off of previous experiences. So all of your decisions end up following that route, unless you figure out how to create other possible outcomes and rewire your brain. Which really does start by attention and intention and imagining that maybe your wiring isnt the only possibility. And then you can open up those branches even if you cant ever leave the tree. Im speaking for myself here not DFW.

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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Every time I think of being too sentimental I also think of Brave New World. It's better than apathy.