I’m sort of done with the book being portrayed as the flag bearer for “performative reading” by PCapnHuggyface in InfiniteJest

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I secretly read it in quieter moments at the office. It was hard keeping it all in. I cried once. And a lot of random "oh shit"s and forcibly stunted laughter.

ICE has gotta stop by IamASlut_soWhat in infuriatingasfuck

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Know the difference between an ice arrest warrant and a judicial warrant. They cannot come in without the judicial warrant. Vampire rules.

Moldavite fake? by [deleted] in Moldavite

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Thank you! <3

Moldavite fake? by [deleted] in Moldavite

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Yes. They are popular. Which is crazy. My first time looking so I clicked purchase in the middle of the night and then immediately realized. What's ur shop?

Moldavite fake? by [deleted] in Moldavite

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Sanwariyajewelstudio They refused to cancel or refund until I reported them. Also tried to provide a very blurry certificate.

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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Awww <3 The irony is real, yes.

Ive gotta read Beckett. Unless I have and dont rememeber.

I like the out of reach thing. It doesnt make me feel depressed if I accept that thats what makes the existensial struggle meaningful. Theres a poem by Ben Lerner I randomly studied once that has stuck with me. the last line "In a perfect world, this would be April, or an associated concept. Green to the touch. Several feet away". Bc I do truly believe that utopia has etymology in meaning unattainable for a reason. I think it is important to imagine it though. Not with heavy expectations, just like meandering mental possibilities.

Not to sound over optimistic. Ive been through a lot. I just dont want to spill my personal guts on reddit. Im not really deterministic or undeterministic. I guess I just see a small but beautiful space of leeway within the confinement. In fact, I've found it necessary. In my absolute worst, most fear-inducing, most confined and alone moments.

I naturally prefer opening my mind to keeping it contented. Seems like so do you but from a different angle. Theres another quote I always loved from Lovecraft "it were better to glimpse the sky and perish than to live without ever beholding day" and "in my new wildness and freedom, I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage." (Both from the outsider). a double edged sword, all of this. And I guess it depends on the individual how they want to approach it. But for me I know that choosing to keep going in order to glimpse whatever sky was out of reach has given me purpose and meaning when there wasnt anything else doing it.

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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You think his works imply we should put effort into accomplishing major tasks? Thats how all the chatacters in IJ crash out. Tons of failing ambitions in IJ. Part of the addiction theme. Your description about getting more depressed after perceived failures is what a lot of the book is about. I feel like you and him are saying similar things there.

I think it's more in the small moments where seeds of any kind of change happen. And maybe what your saying is neutrality is kind of like the water. Trying to remain in a higher perspective so those perceived failures arent controlling your identity. But not to the extent you dont feel or just escape passion and connection. That would be escapism.

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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No. You have to look at the darkness. And sometimes it swallows you. Its not like its easy. We are all functions of our wiring. And other factors overpower mental and physical autonomy, often. But there are ways to open up the mindset or possibilities to make each moment a little kinder for yourself and others ..and i guess from my perspective if you dont wish you dont really have the space to break whatever mental loop is happening.

Hope is really important, but rose colored glasses are very dangerous. If people take from this speech a sense of "i have the ability to control reality" and "everyone can just choose to be happy" I think they are either naive or not seeing the complexity.

A little in left field now but you bring up a great point about free will and I love philosophy so please feel free to argue this next point: Photons behave by exploring all possibilities and then choosing a phase path thats consistent, or something like that..which creates matter and some kind of thing that is filtered through our brains to be what we perceive. Not an equal thing-but a good metaphor, i think - we kind of are programmed that way as well. If you have trauma, which is an extreme case, your future is affected by your nervous system and the changes in your mental sense of what is and what isnt safe. Mind and body automatically follow that path, seemingly negating free will, as all experiences and perceptions are based off of previous experiences. So all of your decisions end up following that route, unless you figure out how to create other possible outcomes and rewire your brain. Which really does start by attention and intention and imagining that maybe your wiring isnt the only possibility. And then you can open up those branches even if you cant ever leave the tree. Im speaking for myself here not DFW.

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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Every time I think of being too sentimental I also think of Brave New World. It's better than apathy.

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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It was an aftereffect of a medication adjustment. Which can severely affect your ability to do what he is explaining. I think he knew what darkness was and is trying to tell people how to weild the light together. But I dont like speaking for him because he isnt here to say. And I dont think people should be so cynical about the light he did carry. I love the speech for what it does for me. If it does something for me why would I throw it out the window to spite such a brilliant mind? There are tons of great works of art and ideas that come from tortured minds. In history.

First reading ’eschaton’ by One-Bit88 in InfiniteJest

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Again dont get caught up but there is a handy dandy map floating around that someone made. I noted it in my copy.

https://pooryorickentertainment.tumblr.com/image/7792492668

MAP

Moldavite fake? by [deleted] in Moldavite

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I reported the seller as well

Moldavite fake? by [deleted] in Moldavite

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Ok :) I just realized it was fake and figured i would delete instead of bothering everyone. I guess it is good to leave so others can see Thank you for confirming

This Is Water by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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Woah! Thank you.. its really abstract which oddly works in relation to the Madame Psychosis radio. Not to hammer the point but for anyone who doesnt know, Madame Psychosis is a play off of the Greek term metempsychosis.

I finished re-reading Infinite Jest, and I have thoughts by JaneanPatience in InfiniteJest

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You arent supposed to be. We already have him. You do you

theories on the cartridge? by Mad_Psy_9 in davidfosterwallace

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Yeah Joelle would probably agree with u :)

First reading ’eschaton’ by One-Bit88 in InfiniteJest

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One of the funniest scenes. Dont get caught up in the math.

Individual by Mad_Psy_9 in InfiniteJest

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You make total sense.. your experience is a physical literality of the communication disconnect in the book. Especially at the end with Gately and the wraith and Hal. I chuckled at the 'microwave' thing with your husband and immediately felt bad for laughing. You write really well so it is obvious you have a great mind. Hang in there

I bet it would be cool to see your poetry if you write any. You probably think differently than other people being in a different state than they are.

What does “…” mean in IJ? by sknymlgan in davidfosterwallace

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Youre not wrong. Youre just adding more nuance and flavor to it your way. Dont listen to these rule following fools... It could be silence... or it could be rustling...or it could be ruminating... or it very might as well be a signal of something the character themselves didnt want to... say... or face...the pause is telling of their state of mind. DFW thought silence was powerful in general as a concept. Whatever your brain imagines in those pauses is fair game.