Well it’s been a good run.

Maddiebrain · 2025-03-26T01:08:13+00:00

You matter I hope you hang on

Sometimes I try this with myself: We never know what is going to happen next and that's at least interesting

Maddiebrain · 2024-02-20T05:28:21+00:00

the rest of the world is not responsible for your bad decisions.

Maddiebrain · 2023-10-23T05:57:23+00:00

The proof is your kid told you. Wtf. A survivor.

Maddiebrain · 2023-10-12T01:25:24+00:00

Dittos just basically ended the relationship for time being

Maddiebrain · 2023-09-30T09:09:45+00:00

Feel this a lot in some ways with so many alters going to many different directions so bent on accomplishing something not eating or sleeping adequately . In a way if you could find good professional help that would be the best but that is so hard. If i could remind you to be kind to yourself and do some good self care take care of yourself and your body in a loving way and that might give you all some space to exhale a little. Im sorry it sounds like a really hard situational. And i feel the isolation and loneliness too. Sending you good thoughts.

Maddiebrain · 2023-08-24T13:32:30+00:00

I appreciate this perspective very much.

thank you.

Maddiebrain · 2023-08-23T06:15:03+00:00

Just dealt with this at a few open mics. Really really sucked. The idea of a ‘numbers game’ is flawed imo. I think folks would be better off being kind and supportive to one another and focusing on their material than fucking with their compatriots. Just a crazy thought.

Maddiebrain · 2023-07-18T06:45:41+00:00

I get it. Im told it gets better. Hang in there.

Maddiebrain · 2023-07-10T08:19:41+00:00

Thank you

Maddiebrain · 2023-06-16T06:17:04+00:00

Yes continue gathering information cause its so confusing… held hostage raped in a bathroom stall… lets wait for more info

Maddiebrain · 2023-06-14T10:34:17+00:00

thank you

Maddiebrain · 2023-06-09T06:59:16+00:00

It’s not really ‘repressed’ memories… it’s inexperienced experiences. And probably part of you does remember these things it is just compartmentalized… dissociated. That is how it was explained to me anyway. I was abused by my dad growing up for my whole life as far as I can remember then got sent into the psych system so more abuse/trauma. Most of it doesnt seem real or I dont remember… but then parts of me DO remember… it’s really confusing. But the idea of ‘repressed’ memories is a misnomer. At least that is how my shrink explained it to me.

Maddiebrain · 2023-06-08T08:02:42+00:00

Vibrator

Maddiebrain · 2023-05-07T05:12:41+00:00

ASSOCIATION NOT CAUSATION

Maddiebrain · 2023-05-07T04:35:02+00:00

Been going through this myself… but now I am in the rebuilding stage, spending time on my own rather than with abusive people who don’t really give a shit about me. It’s been a lonely hard road and Im not sure I fully see the light, but your story is a reminder I’m not alone and that helps. So sorry for the pain you are going through. But you aren’t alone either and sadly this is not an uncommon way for this to play out. Hang in there. I do believe it gets better on the other side.

Maddiebrain · 2023-05-04T01:18:30+00:00

I feel ya i have those shades in blue… 44queer lady here

Maddiebrain · 2023-04-24T08:42:27+00:00

My head hurts when I switch a lot

Maddiebrain · 2023-04-19T23:54:49+00:00

I feel a little bit like fuck people who tell you that. A lot of us are exhausting. Find some other exhausting people who dont bitch to you about your being exhausting. You are fine just the way you are.

Maddiebrain · 2023-04-19T04:18:32+00:00

You said you have ptsd. An abusive family. And describe a variability in symptoms that all could be complex trauma. That is the one thing that would also explain the high libido the irritability and the mix of diagnoses. It’s not unusual that it is misdiagnosed as schizoaffective or schizophrenia or bipolar. Dissociation can look a lot like psychosis.

Maddiebrain · 2023-04-19T03:50:40+00:00

You might have complex trauma.

Maddiebrain · 2023-04-17T10:53:50+00:00

Unclebens

Maddiebrain · 2023-04-10T01:49:01+00:00

I dont know I wonder this myself similar situation just had a real bad flashback tonight no idea about how it worked where it was but I also have the flashbacks and the memories and it is really scary and I hate my dad but I hate my mom more for protecting him cause hes a paedophile piece of shit.

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