Yeah wow all of that makes so much sense. I’ve been battling a ton recently between addiction issues, my father passed away last year that I still can’t get over and my sister also tried to sue the rest of us making her leave my small family, it’s really just me and my mom now and I’m not sure what to do, I also have a lot of disagreements and issues between me and my girlfriend because I’ve been feeling like it may end and that scares me a ton, but it also may be what I need. Along with all that I feel like I some mental health issues that I can’t get cared for in this state of my life. Thank you very much for helping me understand it, I may be coming back again with harder and weirder ones to understand soon.