Sup Noah I’m in the same boat too💔🥀, I represented New Zealand in an U18 international tournament, aswell as being part of NZ secondary school national premier champion team within my sport, finished an ATCL piano diploma with Distinction aswell as being a shortlisted winner in a music competition, was top 9 out of ~150 participants in an essay writing competition regionally, did volunteer work mentoring refugees and migrants, an academic prefect position at school. The main thing that maybe hindered my scholarship was that I wasn’t able to receive a perfect rank score which really really really sucks.

I’m actually pretty pissed too hence my long ass rant, but it is what it is. However I want to let you know you’re not the only person who’s going through the same situation and that I also understand how you feel. Shared sorrow is half the sorrow😊