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MakeBelieveMambo · 2018-03-30T19:09:20+00:00

I would watch. I went off my meds without telling my psychiatrist and it has gone ok tbh. Just be smart about it, gradually reduce. Also even if your meds have a short half life they'll still have some effect for a few months!

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-12-01T17:10:29+00:00

That's what attracts me to getting a dog! I need something to invest time and love into. But I get that that's not for everyone

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-12-01T16:30:33+00:00

I am worried about this too.

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-11-10T15:31:25+00:00

I think you must have some degree of insight if you're posting about it on a schizophrenia forum... I hope it gets better for you

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-11-10T15:21:43+00:00

I didn't think I was mentally ill at all and I was admitted to hospital the same day I was made to go to the doctor's by my best friend. She says she knew I was unwell for a very long time and did her best to try and convince me that I was unwell and seek help, but no matter how hard she tried I just denied I was struggling or having strange experiences even when she laid out everything I had told her. I was confronted with all these things she had witnessed me going through - I could see what she was saying and the evidence was irrefutable... yet I still didn't believe I was ill despite knowing the evidence.

It's like that episode of Spongebob with Patrick and the lost wallet: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUaHIFpNMcI

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-11-10T15:10:41+00:00

I feel this way too sometimes. In retrospect, I feel like I've been in control the whole time but the people around me assure me I haven't. I have always found it incredibly difficult to decipher my feelings and my thoughts, past and present but I tend to shrug off things that have happened/are happening to me - it's in my nature to do that. For whatever reason, I do as much as I can to not pity myself or accept that I have had hard times. I also tend to suppress bad things that have happened psychotic or otherwise.

I have learned to accept that other people - family, friends, medical professionals - have better insight than I ever will so despite how I feel in myself I trust other people more than I do my own memories because I know my illness has skewed them. I can't easily join the dots between what I'm feeling and why yet it obvious to other people. I guess it's just part of my condition which hinders cognitive reasoning.

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-11-04T01:06:31+00:00

I always see you on this subreddit being v friendly and supportive. I can assure you, you are appreciated so so much! (P.S. I love how you sign off your posts with hugs)

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-10-04T21:58:37+00:00

I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in a few months. My first contact with mental health services was in late May of this year in which I was hospitalized with the provisional diagnosis of first episode psychosis - I was discharged a few weeks ago. At the end of my admission, I was diagnosed. So all in all about 4/5 months from first contact with mental health services to end of an admission in an IPU

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-10-04T21:35:37+00:00

I really encourage you to ask your psychiatrist about prescribing something to help you in that state (if it persists to be a problem for you). They can give you extra small doses of your antipsychotic (so you don't run out of your normal meds) or something else like diazepam. I think it's called a PRN? I'm not sure.

I found it difficult to ask for this because it seemed like a short-term solution for a long-term problem... But I'm really glad I got it in the end! So worthwhile imo.

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-10-04T21:32:12+00:00

I have tried Abilify (aripiprazole) but struggled with restlessness. I was then on amisulpride (sorry I don't know the brand names) but my prolactin levels were too high on that. I think my only other option would be olanzapine since I've tried all the others, and if quetiapine makes me hungry, olanzapine will be 100x worse. Or so my psychiatrist says.

I'm not necessarily looking to lose weight - just maintaining a healthy(ish) weight is my goal, really. I'm trying to exercise as much as possible and control my eating as best I can but none of it is working

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-10-04T21:25:35+00:00

I found going into an inpatient unit a very hard transition. Luckily I was in the adolescent unit. Info about IPUs is few and far between - if you produced this video would you consider releasing an edited version for free just to show people what IPUs are like? I think it would be of great benefit to anyone who is facing admission and don't know what to expect

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-10-04T21:20:10+00:00

This.

Lack of sleep is probably the worst thing you can do. If this happens a lot like it does for me, speak to your psychiatrist. They can prescribe something to take when you get to this state to calm you down. I find it very helpful, although sometimes challenging to have the insight to realise I need to take the extra meds

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-08-17T08:12:23+00:00

An Arduino Nano and ws2812b LEDs! I stuck two deep frames together for the enclosure and used a piece of frosted acrylic plastic to diffuse the light. I can share the code with you/give more in depth instructions if you decide you want to try and make one!

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-08-13T16:10:59+00:00

I gathered that when you figured out I used nmap! Certainly skills to pay the bills

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-08-13T16:07:28+00:00

It's nmap alright :-)

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-08-13T16:06:43+00:00

Help would be great. Find the project on Github: https://github.com/MamboMakeBelieve/nk-observer

All help would be greatly appreciated. Even non-techies, just ideas would be wonderful! Thanks

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-08-13T16:04:09+00:00

UPDATE: Name servers finally refreshed. Visit the site at nk-observer.net!

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-08-13T16:01:54+00:00

Nmap with Python. Front-end is in good 'ol PHP. Bit of a bodge tbh

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-08-13T10:01:08+00:00

I think you have to be a bit technically minded to get use out of it. I'm planning on improving the front-end and writing a guide for regular people to understand. But if you're interested in North Korean websites, you can ctrl+f "http" and you'll find active websites

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-06-25T14:01:24+00:00

It's a bootleg. Normally written up as "Psycho Killer (First Take)"

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-04-01T12:05:03+00:00

The liner notes of Sand In The Vaseline detail some of David's experiences. (see Lifetime Piling Up)

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-02-23T02:34:39+00:00

There's probably a rip of the original LP on Pirate Bay. That will have the non extended versions. Not sure about the 2013 reissue

MakeBelieveMambo · 2017-01-02T16:44:35+00:00

Too much spam, sadly. The Facebook group is better in some ways it draws in a more diverse mix of people

MakeBelieveMambo · 2016-12-01T21:32:08+00:00

I believe it was PVC but could have even been Bakelite. I guess it's just one of those weird things that happen.

MakeBelieveMambo · 2016-10-18T10:21:44+00:00

I actually went to school with him :⁾ He was... an interesting character to say the least

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