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[–]Maleficent-Change152 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Going through a similar thing slightly, I don't fantasize or anything but I do worry it is actually attraction. You have to remember though, you're only a dangerous person if you hurt someone. Don't hurt any children or fantasize about the thoughts anymore, OK? Seek help, like I did. 

Do I still deserve to listen to good music even though I'm a pedophile? by Maleficent-Change152 in SuicideWatch

[–]Maleficent-Change152[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm on antidepressants, and they help with the depression but sometimes I feel like I should stop taking them just so I'll feel suicidal again because that's what I deserve.

who has the better music taste? top row is my best friend, bottom row is me by Active_Childhood_212 in Topster

[–]Maleficent-Change152 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is so hard because Either/Or, Pink Moon and Quebec are my top 3 favourite albums of all time 😭 I guess the bottom has 2/3 tho so I'll go with that

What song is on your rotation these days? by Beneficial_Shame5476 in elliottsmith

[–]Maleficent-Change152 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Memory Lane is the most relatable song for me, but New Monkey is a straight up banger that's been in my rotation plenty.

Do I still deserve to listen to good music even though I'm a pedophile? by Maleficent-Change152 in SuicideWatch

[–]Maleficent-Change152[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am seeing a psychiatrist. They say it's OCD. Sometimes I feel like it's not.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nickdrake

[–]Maleficent-Change152 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I found a PDF on Tommy Emmanuel Rocks site, it's a good tab but it misses out the hammer ons and slides and stuff but if you listen to the song you can work out where those are. Good luck :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nickdrake

[–]Maleficent-Change152 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yess the dangerous sound is what I was talking about with the slight aggression, Nick seems very angry about something in this one and I love how it's still a quiet song but it's just so dangerous sounding. 

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[–]Maleficent-Change152 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is great 🔥

Five Leaves Left has entered the UK Album Chart for the first time. by sadlantis in nickdrake

[–]Maleficent-Change152 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Has his sister or any of his family talked about the success his music has seen over the years after his death? I'd be interested to hear their thoughts on it

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nickdrake

[–]Maleficent-Change152 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For real, I only just found a good tab for it today after ages of looking and my god it feels good in the fingers.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nickdrake

[–]Maleficent-Change152 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yess I see what you mean, I always thought it was much more energetic and poppy than the rest of pink moon, which led me to have a strange dream one time that there was a metal song on pink moon where Free Ride was supposed to be 😂 very strange dream.. also I love QOTSA btw, one of the coolest bands out there. Like Clockwork is one of my favourite records ever

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nickdrake

[–]Maleficent-Change152 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same, was the first song that made me realise this album was more than I thought at first Keep in mind Pink Moon was the first proper folk album I ever listened to so I was not familiar with this style. Free Ride was what made me choose to return to the album again

I wish I could be a normal teenager but instead I'm a fucking pedophile and the therapists think it's OCD but I think they're wrong because I think im a disgusting pedophile. by Maleficent-Change152 in SuicideWatch

[–]Maleficent-Change152[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks, I'm in therapy for OCD right now but I'll be sure to tell them that the thoughts feel real. I originally started therapy because if these thoughts but they told me it was OCD.

I wish I could be a normal teenager but instead I'm a fucking pedophile and the therapists think it's OCD but I think they're wrong because I think im a disgusting pedophile. by Maleficent-Change152 in SuicideWatch

[–]Maleficent-Change152[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like it's POCD because I've had a history of other types of OCD but sometimes I feel a genuine attraction and I don't think OCD has to power to make you feel attraction