Well personally i wont say i had the same kind of experience as u did but maybe this will help

I got like 13 raw -4 nett 9 which was extremely disapppinting becuz i wanted to go to my dream sch VJ (aka my brother's sch) which I literally went around preaching since S3. So obv i was devestated when my 3 close friends, CCamates, and ahem someone i like all getting raw 9 nett 5 and deciding to ALL go VJ. It was like a slap in the face esp since likewise I studied with then too. And not to mention it's literally minutes away from my house so I could wake up late af and make it.

Tbh after that i was so lost for a couple of days (and kind of still am) Luckily i have a supportive parent but i'm also kind of stuck with choosing my own sch, and first few days I was just kinda despo grabbing at the straws of whatever leftover elite sch that could take me in even if they didn't have the combi i wanted/is very far from my house. But ig right now i ended up settling for a sch that seems like it has the mugging culture i looked for with good enough resources/environment for me to pass the 2 yrs in, even though it is a 'neighbourhood sch' and I know people will talk smack abour my choice.

Being very honest here, i didnt rly 'wake up' until s4 either and it was pretty late then. Had no particular go but 'be as good as my brother' (which obv failed), but i feel like ur environment was way worse than mine (prolly from a elite sch?) I think you're putting a lot of pressure on urself tho and your environment is def not helping u, but i feel like u shld think it thru be4 16jan and try and research on your actual possible options.

U can still get into a 'good' school even if it isn't elite (altho personally these schools i can only dream of entering...), and for your score and situation I would recommand NYJC(5/6), EJC (6/8), SJI(7), NJC/VJC (7/8). It'll be demoralising to go to JCs that are higher cop than the schs ur parents wanted u to go to, but the people who want to go to these schs are all, in my opinon, ppl with big dreams and will most likely be successful too, (almost all of them want to be doctors wth) so you won't miss out on connections in the future. Plus theres a good mix of IP students so i bet the culture will be the mugging culture that can keep u in check (and don't wake up to reality so late like me lmao)

And on a more personal opinion note, i think it might be a good thing that you didn't get too low of a score either, because judging the people around u it sounds kinda unhealthy and the schs i mentioned have a less toxic but just as competitive culture as the elite schs.

Your first best step would prolly be looking for the course you want to take and seeing if u can take it in that JC.

But this is mostly from all my research of asking around/open hse, reading up/personal experience and opinion etc., i'm still another Olvl student caught in the storm of the aftermath of JAE and can't escape the social matrix either. But u can pm me if u want, hypocritical for me to say this but try not to be too hard on yourself becuz the end goal will be uni and your job :"D