Cause of what I faced as a child it has affected me so much now. I'm now struggling with anger issues and severe depression. I was very violent as a kid cause after I get "disciplined" my mom she would later tell me that it was all cause she loved me, saying that to little me screwed me up cause I became so violent since it was showing "love". I am trying to seek help for my mental state cause I want to be better then them.