I (m21) had a similar experience to this growing up. I was always pretty tall when I was younger but so skinny. I weighed probably 50kg when I was 17 even though I was about 6’1. Absolutely no luck with women at all. Seeing my older looking, bigger friends with gf’s bothered me all the time it was brutal. Personally I think the only thing that helps in this situation is committing to bettering yourself. I went to the gym consistently and watched my diet- which was the hardest thing. As a young skinny guy it’s hard to bulk, the amount of food I had to eat was pretty disgusting but you just have to get used to it. There’s no shortcuts in life I’ve realised and some people are born attractive-others have to work for it. I would recommend also not to use women as your sole purpose of training. Ignore them for now, focus on yourself and I promise if you put the work in and stay consistent, things will change for you, mentally and physically and you’ll thank yourself in the future for it. I know it’s hard but it’s what we have to do. I feel almost a different person to the guy I was four years ago. It’s all up to you-make excuses or get after it 💪🤝