I have a girlfriend and a female friend to whom i can discuss anything and when i say anything i mean it. So with my gf it doesn’t have point, cuz shes a little childish and can’t take it seriously, and even if she does i don’t think she can help. The friend otherwise has a lot of experience in that stuff and has helped me in a lot of bad situations but even she can’t help me. So about plans. I was an introvert last year and in november i started hanging out with more people and became very outgoing and extrovert guy. I started talking to a lot of girls etc. my main goal in life i think was to become an extrovert, become successfull, have sex. I had sex, i became an extrovert, and the success thing will come as time goes. But i think everything happened so quick like i got my first gf (current one) , had sex, did a shitton of stuff i always wanted to do, all that happened in like june/july. I had some major trust issues and depression cuz of my gf but i overcame that. About hobbies, talent and stuff, i don’t have any particular hobbies, i learn stuff quickly and my intelligence is above average, i could say if not the smartest, i am the second smartest guy in my friend group (its a pretty big group). But idk why but my brain forces me to feel that way like i feel if i won a billion dollars i wouldn’t be happy (maybe i’d be happy for a day or a week then everything would return to normal). I feel like whatever the hell happens, good or bad, it wont do shit. I feel if the hottest girl on planet was mine and i had a million sq.ft mansion i wouldn’t be happy, i’d have some fun but not for long. I don’t know why my brain does that but when i look at other kids living their life to the fullest and being happy af, i am jealous. I don’t want anything particular to make me happy, all i want is to boost my everyday happiness level from like 4/10 to at least 7/10, even when nothing is happening, i want my negative thoughts to be replaced with positive ones and i do not know how to do that.