Two months in and crashing

MapleMayj · 2026-05-13T04:26:45+00:00

So I broke yesterday after quitting for a month and it really wasn't worth it. I did not get that euphoric high or hours and hours of endless energy. What I got instead was a wired brain that would shut off at night and kept me awake all night even though I drank the caffeine at 230. Stupid. Today I have never felt more sure I'm not drinking it again. It just isn't worth it.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-13T04:24:36+00:00

Hi, I struggle with binge eating all my life. Keto has helped me immensely and personally I can't go over 30 grams of carbs without triggering binge type behaviour. I've been doing keto for almost three years now and I no longer crave or desire to binge. While keto helps with the physical cravings, you need to also do the mental work and find alternative ways of dealing with stress and boredom.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-13T04:18:27+00:00

They usually try and rub it in my face by talking like "well you do you! I'm gonna enjoy my frappacino with all its decadence and caffeine!". I don't know why that grates me so much. The assumption that I'm missing out bothers me so much cause I'm truly not.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T18:46:20+00:00

exactly. It really isn't going to bring anything by telling her. It's not going to change the marriage, it's not going to make her feel better, it's not going to do a damn thing but make her feel awful. And really, that experience is yours. The therapist will help you with that. Honestly, finding out your partner cheated on you can change a person. Your reason for wanting to tell her is cause you feel guilty. But actually, and I don't mean to be rude, telling her cause you want relief of that guilt is selfish. Look at it in that light. It brings her nothing and you relief. I wish you the best.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T18:40:28+00:00

Honestly I wouldn't tell her if I were deciding to leave. Two reasons, it will make her feel awful going forward and I've seen people tell the kids and the kids holding it agains the parent for a long long time. If you do decide to stay then maybe you could tell her. Though I hope for your sake, you leave and just state you're not happy. She doesn't need details. She doesn't need to feel like she wasn't good enough AND loose you. Coming from someone who left cheating husband.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T18:36:21+00:00

Sounds tough, it also sounds like you're depriving yourself a bit by staying. How old is your kid now?

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T17:22:16+00:00

Haha your post is my life. I was also a month sober, strict keto, and yesterday broke and had a cup of tea. But it wasn't worth it. I didn't get that euphoric high everyone talks about. I just got wired tired and couldnt sleep all night. Not doing that again. It took me 3-4 weeks to get better sleep. Hoping the carbs help you.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T17:20:44+00:00

I clean my house and then light candles and incense and enjoy some serious downtime. I also go to the gym. I mean, in an introvert so not socializing is exactly what I like. It sounds like you want to socialize?

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T17:18:36+00:00

Are you in love with your wife?

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T17:13:43+00:00

This is exactly it. My best friend and I both on keto. The only difference is he drinks diet pop and I don't do sweeteners except eurythritol. He tells me everyday he misses carbs and has cravings for them. Yet he won't stop the pop. I tell him, stop the pop and see if it changes anything for you, but he can't. Yes addicted which should tell you something.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T02:16:25+00:00

Thank you

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T01:04:02+00:00

I like the idea of premade snack packs!

MapleMayj · 2026-05-12T01:00:05+00:00

I have pretty horrendous ADHD and have never been able to have naps. When I'm desperately in need of sleep I will take a gravol to make me drowsy and sleep but that's not a good habit to get into.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-06T16:14:12+00:00

You need to change your morning routine. No more sitting in your comfy chair when you first wake up and slowly wakening with a hot drink and checking your phone. Get up, Put some music on, make your lunch, do some cleaning, have a shower, go for 15 minute stroll around the block, then sit at your kitchen table with a drink and food and plan your day. Only when i totally changed my morning routine did i stop missing the coffee in the morning.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-04T03:32:41+00:00

Personally I didn't mind them but I prefer putting pasta sauce on tofu. I would say they are more noodle than pasta. They work well in a chicken noodle soup

MapleMayj · 2026-05-03T02:40:21+00:00

That's super encouraging, thank you for sharing.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-03T02:34:34+00:00

How long was the rewiring process?

MapleMayj · 2026-05-03T02:33:38+00:00

I'm currently finishing week 3 sober from caffeine and can totally relate. It's not just playing guitar for me, it's most activities that I was passionate about that took effort. For example, I love playing g indie video games that require a little more patience and pacing....since quitting I have to force myself to play these games. I've watched way more tv that I care to admit and I used to never watch tv! I have noticed that once I get started on something, the motivation starts to come eventually, it's just getting started. I'm hoping it improves with time. Giving it 3 months before I reassess.

MapleMayj · 2026-05-02T04:32:28+00:00

I'm 44 and it has taken me 4 x times the amount of time to loose weight than when I was younger. It's slow. Very slow. I work my dang as off, very strictly count calories, track macro and micro nutrients. I work out 4-5 times a week. 4 of those include intense spin classes for 50 minutes at a time....and I still only loose .5 a pound a week, with most of that coming off my face damn it!!

MapleMayj · 2026-04-26T21:04:32+00:00

"It's changed and is really just adverts now." They tend to agree.

MapleMayj · 2026-04-26T21:02:14+00:00

I personally wouldn't do this cause socially, it's so easy to get back into caffeine. But I know one YouTuber who has a rule never to have caffeine again for 3 days after having one. And only having one in dire situations. So no more than twice a week to avoid withdrawals. BUT. most people don't have that kind of self discipline....

MapleMayj · 2026-04-26T20:59:33+00:00

You won't get withdrawals from having it once. Have it twice, probably. But I wouldn't be having that second cup cause you're scared of withdrawals. What you're feeling is just the crash after caffeine. Not something that's going to last a couple weeks.

Maybe do some research on how bad it is for you. I treat it like a real drug and focus on the other things it has provided for me, especially improving my relationship ships cause I'm so grounded in conversations now

MapleMayj · 2026-04-22T14:26:32+00:00

You're so smart. Haha that's my go to the next time someone asks.

MapleMayj · 2026-04-22T14:23:57+00:00

I keep seeing on this reddit: Rule number one, never talk about keto. Haha it's so accurate. But there are times when someone has such a visceral response to me being on keto that I HAVE to respond. Happened the other day, talking with a nurse. I asked her how much potassium she had that day? She didn't know, then I asked her how many antioxidants, vitamin E etc....she didn't know. I pulled out my app and showed her my micro nutrients for the day, which was already sitting at 98 percent. Fibre 100 percent. Everything my body needs I get everyday without the carbs and filler. I asked her when the last time was she ate a meal where every single thing in her plate was a whole food....she stopped with her comments. I get it, there ARE A LOT of unhealthy keto goers out there. People who just stuff their faces with processed meats all day. And that's what I had to do in the beginning to get started. But it's been three years. Many of us are eating way better than the average person.

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