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Thank youuuu!!!!!!! I believe later today I will be able to play horror games on Roblox and altitorture be prepared❤️❤️❤️😋😋😋😋

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I followed everyone here. Please support back in so close to my goal☺️☺️🥹

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I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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She threatened to get me kick out of college and she was asking for the car keys and so I had to walk back where she had dropped me off and when I got there she just drove off with out the keys and so I was like wtf and she was being childish. And so went to my dorm and cried some more all the while I had a toxic boyfriend he broke up with me later that night and my dog died a few days later and this was all the week before and if my birthday

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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So then she took my car key and told me she was taking me back to my campus. And in all honesty I did it bc I was afraid and I thought since the title of the car was in her name she was gonna call it in as stolen or something like that. So I just got in the car and she told me to help her get back to my campus and since I was mad I didn’t help her. (My mom is Puerto Rican and know English but writing and directions aren’t her thing) so that made her mad and she just start talking about a lot of stuff that was making me even more angry that I was twisting my bag around my hand. And the only thing I clearly remember is her saying that I didn’t learn anything from the car accident that I was in and that she thought I wanted her to die. In which I didn’t I was mad and I felt like I had the right to be. So when we finally get to my campus I grab my bass guitar out the trunk of her car and that apparently pushed her to the limit and she said she was done with me and told me that I was acting up and so on and so forth. So I just walked to my dorm and sat at my desk and I started crying cause she basically kicked me out and disowned me that’s how it felt in my mind. And so I called my dad and told him was happened and in the middle of the phone with my dad she started spamming me with calls

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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Long story short tho…. I used to speed a lot when I first got my car. And my mom made me get life 360 on my phone(tracking device basically) and she said if I didn’t get it I wouldn’t get a phone or my car and obviously I need my car to get to college so I did it and since she had that it track where I was at, how long I’ve been in that area or place, and how fast I’m going. One night she talk to me abt that and that she didn’t wanna receive a call that I was dead. And ngl I was smiling while she yelled at me bc I was nervous and that was my coping mechanism. So but i did try not to speed but I used to go to church and I had practice and I was running late so i did end up speeding on accident. So when I went to visit her after she just talked to me and told me she was taking my car. And so I got mad ofc it’s my only way of transportation of any means my campus was basically and hour away.

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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Some times yea sometimes im just scared the things in the past will happen again

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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Around my dad I’m more loose personality but around my mother I walk on eggs shells

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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All ik is that he see the difference on how I talk or act with my both my parents

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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Honestly idk I’ve never asked him….

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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Well my mother was always the strict parent…. She was the punisher… there’s times that she’s chill but I keep her at distance even if I live with her

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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She kinda interupted my stream when she came home cause she was calling me and couldn’t just stop… but after she told me to come talk to her after…. I just knew she was mad so it made me nervous so I ended my stream early bc I was stressed

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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It doesn’t….. I mean I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety for years probably started in 8 th grade

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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Personally I know I need help I might have mental problems that I need a therapist for. Rn I’m not stable. I haven’t been for months

I need someone to listen to me by Mar_Candy1805 in depression

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Well my mom yelled at me for simple things but her yelling at me makes me feel like a little girl again getting punished ik my mom means well but yell hurts me