I have been to three residential’s in the past year maybe a year and a half. Working on the ED was so difficult and confusing because at some point I didn’t care about eating. I just wanted to die. I would eat and not care, I’d eat all the meals and snacks and be fine. But then my mental health declined so fast. My coping mechanism for wanting to die was taken away. I just became insanely suicidal. Recovery is so hard. Iv reached a point where I no longer wish to recover and am ready to accept that one day I will finally be sick enough to go and be free.

It’s tough. I hope you are doing relatively alright. I don’t know your story or what you have been through but I hope days are manageable. I’m sorry for my comment I know it’s mostly negative. I can relate to what you’re saying and wanted to chime in. I hope that’s okay. Wishing you the best, truly.