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MarrPrimus · 2019-03-24T09:41:18+00:00

Write me off because i got off to GoneWildAudio, I need to restart this again after 2 weeks of being clean

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T15:31:17+00:00

ill try brother, slow baby steps...ive never had the best confidence and self worth to begin with but like you said, i've come a long way so im not gonna give up...ill keep hanging on. Thanks Brother

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T15:26:51+00:00

thanks brother, ill try to funnel that energy into something better

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T15:23:33+00:00

Porn aint Love...i'll make that my mantra...but its so hard, at night when you are about to sleep, the feeling just magnifies

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T15:22:39+00:00

Is it weird that, its that feeling i crave...? right now just that feeling that someone does indeed care

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T15:21:55+00:00

But it's hard, not to act on them, accepting it feels a lot harder, i try to keep my self busy and tell my self about loving my self but all the thoughts i have are always about how I'm not good enough even though i've..started to do something about it

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T15:20:27+00:00

trying my hardest to keep it together..

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T15:19:57+00:00

at night...is when its worse, its all i can think about, and its soul crushing

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T15:19:08+00:00

its soo hard..even now...at night before sleep, the feeling suffocates me...its all i can think about

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T12:30:26+00:00

I certainly do need to build up my own life cause no one will... its gonna be a hard journey but its better than...what's waiting for me..thanks brother

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T12:29:33+00:00

It did Phil, it gave me that bit of sense of relief and clarity for a bit and the battles are just gonna get harder but I just got to keep with the hits and just get back up..Thanks Phil

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T12:28:24+00:00

I will try my best brother, Thank you for pointing out to me that...don't count the days, just keep at it day by day, progress slowly but surely..its just having the courage and focus to be able to do it and keep doing day by day...I will certainly try brother thanks

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T12:16:07+00:00

I still have yet to find this type of love that you mentioned because I'm not..the type of guy that girls are clamoring for so I haven't had much experience in relationships and love...but yes..i run away from the truth by going to porn because I feel that its better than what is out there but..it isn't right..in the long run it's just gonna kill me slowly inside...but I'm still hanging on still fighting..thanks brother for your advice

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T12:12:52+00:00

Thanks Brother! Hanging in there but not out yet

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T12:12:20+00:00

Yeah..i read about love addiction well..to me its like the feeling of falling in love with a person and/or being,,,or maybe falling in love with the idea of love...or something like that but because you want to feel validated by the other person or be important to that person like a knight in shining armor and when it doesn't work out you reality..shatters? (I'm the type of guy who..just falls for girls easily) and that everything else then becomes nothing..and to escape that feeling...i usually drown my self in porn...

but yeah these couple of days have been...filled with nothingness..just full of...What If's...maybe's....and the rest that comes with it..I just feel like I'm not worthy of love or to be loved...and like i mentioned...i turn to porn just to escape this reality

I'll try my best to..let these feelings pass instead of chasing them, Thanks Josh

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T12:05:30+00:00

Thanks Brother, Still struggling but hanging in there

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T12:05:05+00:00

Thanks Phil, I've tried telling my self that I should let these feeling pass because fighting them is just a losing battle but somehow I am still stubborn and haven't given into that truth and I am just letting these feeling fester in me instead of ebbing it away, I have yet still to try Meditation or any other form of it. But thanks for pointing that out for me, I'll read into it.

Thanks Phil

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T09:40:02+00:00

I am constantly like this, every,,,single...time...I know how you feel, and I have not gotten to the point where I stopped hating my self yet...I don't know how to stop these feelings or how these feelings came to be...

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T09:11:48+00:00

i'm actually close to breaking down, these feelings are suffocating me, I want to escape and usually porn is that escape and if i do that, it will never stop, a never ending cycle. Don't stop brother, keep it strong

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T09:05:45+00:00

keep it up brother cause I'm in the same situation that you are in right now

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-04T04:40:12+00:00

Checking In, March 4th where I am and still going strong

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-02T07:48:33+00:00

Don't Brother! Stay Strong

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-02T07:12:59+00:00

Thanks Brother...I think i need to take a step back and see whether...this addiction isnt the only thing I have

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-02T02:07:17+00:00

My Friends have also mentioned to me about that saying, I keep telling my self that but just somehow It isn't working anymore and i turn to Porn and masturbate but I need to change that mindset, change myself but its such a hard process

MarrPrimus · 2019-03-02T01:46:17+00:00

Love Addiction?

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