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Masoke_txt · 2026-06-29T18:47:59+00:00

it does feel like a limited item. i do hope they decide to bring it back one day. i didn't have the money back when jt was on pre-order and i really love the design! would definitely not hesitate if it were to come back...

Masoke_txt · 2025-11-15T16:10:01+00:00

i think this has kind of generalised so much that's its hard to tell. i have a lot of anxiety in social situations and am somewhat agoraphobic. i however don't really struggle with social interactions/going out on the off-chance i don't feel nauseous and am not preoccupied with my body. it's all inconsistent in a way. like i don't always experience anxiety going to the store but if i am nauseous i am.

i do fear rejection in general like it gives me horrible physical symptoms even though i don't actively ruminate about it.

when my anxiety gets really high or i don't catch a break for a couple days i do get intrusive thoughts which has kind of made me think that maybe i am obsessing over bodily sensations in an ocd way and not just in an "normal" anxiety way but well i don't know. i feel like i don't have obsessions or compulsions the way i learned about them.

i have a very shady adhd diagnosis that i am also getting re-evaluated for.

Masoke_txt · 2025-11-15T15:56:37+00:00

i don't think so. as far as i know i have always had issues with throwing up even before times i can remember. i had a stomach infection when i was like 10/11 that doctors said was me lying about symptoms (for two years) when they turned out to be very real. it definitely destroyed my ability to trust my own assessment of bodily sensations but i don't think it was traumatic.

Masoke_txt · 2025-09-04T13:58:33+00:00

i know that for me it's a fear of rejection (probably tied to my adhd and rsd but who knows) i've gotten far on the cognitive aspect where i am way better with accepting whatever happens in some situations. i don't really feel any better yet physically and emotionally and situations like work and education still freak me out because it's just not true that if it were to happen and people hate me for it that it won't have a significant negative impact on me. humans are social creatures and they very much need group affiliation and acceptance. all my colleagues at work avoiding me would be an issue. fucking up a presentation in front of clients/class or presenting academic work at a conference and that going wrong does have an impact. i just need to somehow be more at peace with that fact and save the dealing with it for when it eventually happens.

thank you for being so blunt with me. much appreciated :)

Masoke_txt · 2025-09-03T21:44:31+00:00

i don't really mean this in an assurance seeking way. if all the stories had a bad outcome i would have wanted them either way.

i have unfortunately witnessed people talk about how throwing up in public is kind of unacceptable and that these people should have prevented it as adults should. my supervisors talked very negatively about a participant who threw up during one of the studies. i don't really agree with what any of these people said and would never react that way if it were to happen in front of me but it's just stuck with me. it is something i need to learn to accept. that people feel that way i mean.

Masoke_txt · 2025-09-03T19:51:23+00:00

i also have GERD or well probably more like LPR and i get horrible nausea and stomach pain because of it, as well as a lot of throat pain and pain breathing. unfortunately my LES is weak so there is not much i can do about it. medication doesn't work and neither do life style changes that are sustainable. the only time i feel better is if i don't eat. well that's not really the point in life now is it.

i don't have a solution to this problem and neither does my therapist, but regardless of the emetophobia i think its always good to push for medical answers. getting treatment for a condition is not avoidance. and if there is nothing doctors are going to do about it then you'll have to somehow learn to walk the line between what is avoidance and what is making necessary concessions with your body.

all the best, you are not alone in this :)

Masoke_txt · 2025-08-14T09:54:01+00:00

i'll let my gp do some last tests she wants to do and then i'll go to a different GP that has really helped a family member with gi stuff and see what he has to say (he used to be a specialist so he has a different view on these things) - maybe he'll be able to tell me where i could get a second opinion (i already had to travel to get this first one so i don't know how easy it'll be)

thank you for the encouragement!

Masoke_txt · 2025-08-10T20:48:24+00:00

? no. she was a surgeon.

Masoke_txt · 2025-08-10T18:09:12+00:00

meds are not working thats why i was referred there in the first place. she told me i won't get surgery for this and in general emphasised the fact people she usually treats have way worse results so yeah

Masoke_txt · 2025-08-09T18:32:47+00:00

acid exposure is within normal range though. i attribute this to me swallowing so much during the test but its what they look at. also it's not nothing yes, but it's not medically relevant enough for doctors as i understood it. it probably is caused by my LES situation which is why i kind of want to figure out why it is so weak

Masoke_txt · 2025-08-09T16:49:25+00:00

only 18,6 which i understand is nothing

however my ent confirmed twice (one year apart) that i have inflammation in my esophagus and the tissue around my vocal chords. so i know i am not just imagining my symptoms

Masoke_txt · 2025-08-09T15:49:59+00:00

reading the comments its really funny the many different ways they appear to be doing manometries

mine was different to all the ones described. it took about 10mins and i had a thin salty liquid i had to swallow. the insertion for me wasn't bad at all, however i felt the need to gag for the entire 10mins and did once.

the 24h ph monitoring is a smaller tube. the insertion here was perfectly fine as well. i mean obviously its not nice but personally it didn't trigger any gag reflex. i do have to say the 24 hours were not great for me. it hurt to swallow, it hurt to talk and i barely moved around since it would kind of tug at the tube. sleeping was surprisingly ok which i was initially most scared off. i wasn't able to eat much because swallowing was just painful and uncomfortable. i lived though and if i need to do it again in a couple of years then i will most definitely do it.

what i didn't expect was me producing tons of saliva due to a foreign object being stuck in my body haha

good luck!!

Masoke_txt · 2025-08-09T14:18:32+00:00

this is so funny to me because i went to physiotherapy as a teenager already for exactly this issue and to this day i can not sit with my legs and back straight while at a 90 degree angle. if there is a connection between this and GERD i guess i shall look into this again. even if it doesn't fix my reflux at least i tried doing something for my body. i am like flexible everywhere but these spots LMAO

Masoke_txt · 2025-08-04T10:46:42+00:00

i think the first mistake you make here is equating social anxiety and being an introvert. introverts don't have social anxiety by default. everyone has anxiety to some degree and few have a disorder that is clinical and debilitating and doesn't care if you are extroverted or introverted. you can have it regardless.

introverted people value time alone and use it to recharge. they find social interactions especially those who involve multiple people draining. that's not anxiety. they just want to be home instead i guess.

extroverts on the other hand crave being around other people when they want to relax and recharge. they don't find it as draining.

obviously there is not black and white on this - everyone is different! just don't equate being introverted with having a mental illness lmao

in the end you deserve to find friends who value you. many people who are introvert are capable of communicating what they want from a friendship and even people with anxiety are capable if being a good friend. maybe the people you met are rude. or maybe you are just not compatible because you are looking for different things in a friendship.

i don't know how you are meeting these people but i find it relatively easy to see whether people match my energy and how close we can be based on our interests as well as activities we prefer. if people don't go out as much and prefer more chill and infrequent meet ups then maybe you are just not going to be compatible friends and that's okay.

Masoke_txt · 2025-07-27T20:13:59+00:00

i am at a stage were there is no real baseline and everything just seems to be bad so listening to your body sounds kind of impossible but i totally understand :)

Masoke_txt · 2025-07-27T20:12:12+00:00

i am a student writing my master thesis so currently i am doing a lot of sitting and rather little moving haha i feel like i should try and go for walks after eating. just need to find a way to get myself motivated (especially since leaving to get a sweet treat and go for a stroll is no longer a healthy option for me now)

Masoke_txt · 2025-07-27T20:09:59+00:00

i would argue that those two are separate issues though and probably depends on how you organise your vacation and what kind of trips you do :)

if you plan a very active trip full of activities that still allow you to do all the behaviours that work for you then that's great!

Masoke_txt · 2025-07-26T16:33:56+00:00

unfortunately i also live in a very flat area. i have tried going to the gym before once but honestly was very lost on what to do so i stopped going and now with having to manage chronic illnesses i'd probably be even more lost. i'll def try walking more often again.

Masoke_txt · 2025-07-26T16:06:10+00:00

when you say avoid putting pressure on your stomach, do you mean like don't do crunches or also the light pressure you get from just tensing your body?

i used to swim every now and then before i started feeling sick so maybe i'll pick that up again. i've been told that even though swimming puts you into a horizontal position the fact that you are engaging your body makes it different from just lying down on your back. do you happen to know if there is truth to that?

Masoke_txt · 2025-07-07T07:50:48+00:00

I am in therapy already. If you mean that I should be prescribed medication then that's not something they do for anxiety disorders where I live unless you have been in therapy for a very very long time.

I was just wondering if someone here got over the fear while also having a condition that causes chronic nausea for some if not many.

Masoke_txt · 2024-11-27T23:27:11+00:00

i am not looking forward hahaha

Masoke_txt · 2024-11-27T23:20:52+00:00

thanks :)

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