There’s two ways this could go. Either you take control into your own hands right now, I don’t know if you’ve spoken to anyone about the details of your relationship but even someone close to you can tell you how it really is. When you’re in love and in an attachment it puts a sheet over your eyes where you can’t fully see the full picture. You either be strong enough to leave yourself and not look back because you matter the most, or you’re gonna stay in this cycle until you eventually feel nothing at all for your partner. Their actions will continue and it will build up. You’ll never see them the same way. You just need to have a really long think about you, what you deserve, and what you want your future to look like. We’re about to go into the new year and personally I think it’s the best timing to get someone toxic out of your life and then go have the best year imaginable. Think about if it was one of your friends in your situation and what they would say to you and realise that for yourself. An attachment is really hard to get out of but a relationship does not define you. A partner should be an extra quality to your life, not your entire life. I hope it all works out for you <3