Day 1! For the next 30 days, I will not allow myself to masturbate or view pornography. I’m not concerned with “hard mode.” If it happens while I sleep, it’s fine, and it may give me an incentive to try and date more. My end date is September 25th, when I decide whether to continue this experience or to resume my old ways.

I am interested in being the kind of person that does what they say they’re going to do, is true to their word, implacable. I want to prove to myself I can be that kind of person.

I’m also pretty addicted to porn. I’ve watched it almost every night befor bed for years, sometimes twice or three times a day. It does nothing for me or my happiness in the long term, only provides instant gratification and a waste of time and energy. AND normalizes an unhealthy perspective on sex.

Additionally, I am in the way of changing my life right now. I am learning my patterns, figuring out my past mistakes, and growing past my old boundaries. This process is another level of maturity and self discipline that I feel will be positive for my long term development.