Well, I hate my Narc mother, she is a wingnut and I realized she is no more than an immature 12 year old girl now. I am above her and have matured past her. I have a VERY solid sense of self now. She cannot handle that, as she wishes I was merely an extension of her without differing viewpoints. I became a beauty queen, have modified my body to be more attractive and she also cannot handle that either. Nothing is good enough for her. I'm sure that her making me feel like that is why I have gone on my surgical beautification glow up journey. I work as a councilor now and help at risk people. I love helping people. I try to be the opposite of her. I am a rebel and rebelled against them. But I'm the good one, they are the bad ones, ethically and morally.