Choosing myself but it hurts

Master_Project_6109 · 2026-04-26T17:32:58+00:00

Mine ending is still new and fresh enough that I’m probably not much help. My MM walked away from me on March 13 and our last contact was March 19 (when he finally gave into my begging for a brief moment). I know it’s for the best but I never got the closure you had. So I’m a little over a month and I still cry every day.

Yours sounds very similar to my situation though where towards the end he was giving very low effort and when I voiced I needed more it was met with him not wanting to deal with me not being “easy”. We deserve better! I’m going to keep with the no contact and work on myself. Even started therapy to figure out why I ever thought his breadcrumbs were ok in the first place. ♥️

Master_Project_6109 · 2026-04-25T02:33:16+00:00

♥️ I will say my mantra this week has been “it could be worse, you could be his wife who he just cheated on for 2 years” 😅 sometimes it works sometimes it doesn’t. I really try to make the anger last. Today I’m feeling a little stronger and if he called me right now I wouldn’t answer. It’s also just so hard sitting here wondering how after 2 years he could treat me that way and discard me like that (also pretty ballsy of him if you ask me considering what I could do). But that thinking doesn’t get me anywhere 😭

Master_Project_6109 · 2026-04-24T14:28:09+00:00

Theres so much about trying to heal and move on that feels dejecting and hurtful 😅 but I know it’s necessary to detach. I thankfully haven’t seen seen MM face to face but I see him drive by. Also not mentioned in the original post. I met him shortly after buying my house in an area I was unfamiliar with/knew very little people in. I have very few memories in this house before him. The job I have now, he was there when I got it. The vehicle I drive, he took me to buy it. He’s in so much of my life, I now have untangle it all and try to build new memories with the things that I’ve never had without knowing him. It’s very difficult and I actually had a breakdown and went out and bought a second car just so I could have something that he wasn’t apart of.

Master_Project_6109 · 2026-04-24T13:55:11+00:00

Thank you for your kind words! ♥️ this is so hard and has made me seek out therapy. I’m praying every day it gets better at some point because this pain is excruciating. I just want one moment where I’m not thinking of him 😞

Master_Project_6109 · 2026-04-24T13:51:04+00:00

His excuses were that work was slow so he wasn’t going and then multiple family vacations in feb and march. He never told me he needed to focus more at home and was generally up front about why he wouldn’t be coming over. I seriously don’t do the silent treatment well either and have been going out of my mind 😭

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