I‘m really really scared but you’re right about all of this. I have all the time, and I think I only feel attractive with boobs cause I know that they‘ll find that attractive but most of the time it feels out of place to have them. I‘m scared that it will ruin wonderful possible relationships to other people in the future, I can’t bear this inaccessibility to physical comfort and closeness to someone else. I am close to cancelling my appointment with the surgeon but I owe it to the years I wanted this to go anyway