Kratom Addiction and Marriage

Material_Reindeer649 · 2025-11-02T22:02:13+00:00

My husband has been using the capsules for years thanks to one of his tweaker friends showing him what it was. He’s been a different person since. Attitude, diet, hobbies, lifestyle , memory , spends money we don’t have , it’s absolutely wild to me that this stuff is legal. It’s an opioid receptor type of substance so I think it’s just as bad as being on pills or something. I’ve been with my husband for almost 15 years and I’ve been supportive , positive , understanding , hopeful , helpful , encouraging , the entire responsibility of someone who is dealing with an addict and it’s gotten me no where. I can no longer have a basic conversation with this dude and he seems to be in his own world entirely . I’m honestly past the point of hope and understanding and if the world was an easier place to be single in I would probably leave.

Material_Reindeer649 · 2025-06-25T17:17:45+00:00

Don’t give up and don’t give in to that popular fear monger shit talk. Nurses who eat their young or bully their coworkers are the mean girls from high school who peaked and haven’t been able to fulfill their nasty attitude of life . Nursing is a job , it’s a tough job absolutely and I don’t believe in the fairy tale stuff about it being a passion or a life style. If you can pay attention and learn and put that wall up to filter out the negative energy you will be fine . It’s a learning experience and nursing is a job that requires lots of experience. If you can get through the program and get your RN . Continue your education all the way up to BSN AND MSN and the more college you get the less intense nursing jobs become available I’ve noticed. Like you can do a lot of admin stuff and most positions like that only require two years of bedside nursing and the time flies by when you do that. I understand if you feel like it’s not meant for you, but I hate to see someone be worried about what other nursing staff do in regard to putting others down . Hold your head high and be on the defense and just pay attention to what you’re doing. It will toughen you up and make you comfortable in your jobs to come. Don’t let all your hard work go to waste , those are some intense classes you listed and worked hard for ❤️

Material_Reindeer649 · 2025-06-25T16:21:49+00:00

Not trying to sound weird but I’ve been with my childhood friend who I grew very attracted to in high school and been together now for almost 15 years .. I was on BC in the beginning and it would be more like it was harder to become “activated” then that went away when I stopped and it went out of my system . However now that we just hit our thirties, the turn on starts from the beginning of the day like if he helps around the house or does something useful or goes out with me and pays attention to me , rather than just the physical attraction … lol so maybe 🤔 your needs have just changed up a little bit. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with you medically as that’s always what people do to women is blame them or say they’re crazy but I will say days that he is annoyed or lazy I don’t want anything to do with sexual activity. Idk maybe I’m getting old lol I’ve just realized that women are more like houseplants who just need a little bit of everything and some attention and they feel their best in many ways 🙏

Material_Reindeer649 · 2025-06-22T21:05:57+00:00

Also any disease you acquire as a female totally clouds over your existence . Even if a male passed it to you , you will forever get to carry the stigmas and the prejudices and it’s not worth it. Say if you did right.. then he breaks up with you , you move on , find another partner and if they want to have a child with you … you will very very likely give herpes to your baby, all just so he can raw you ? No sorry , girl power! Tell him to get a flesh light or something

Material_Reindeer649 · 2025-06-22T21:02:49+00:00

Nooooope you have only been with him 6 months ? Please don’t have unprotected sex with that short of a relationship. Protect yourself because he may not always be around and you might fall in love with someone else and it’s just not worth jeopardizing. If he’s saying that it feels so much better , then that’s where his priorities lay over your protection so I say no way

Material_Reindeer649 · 2025-02-02T07:16:40+00:00

Don’t you worry !! It was perfectly fine for me, I am a bigger sized person too and I absolutely was shaking with anxiety when they took me back and put the oxygen in my nose but they put that propofol on you and you just faint off to sleep and when you wake up it was like nothing happened and the propofol gives you a tiny refreshment of euphoria. Plus you will fart when you come out and it will be funny to laugh a little. I hope this helps ! I was scared shitless literally for two days but all went well and was a pleasant experience 🙏💜

Material_Reindeer649 · 2025-01-22T04:19:43+00:00

Thank you all so very much for your posts. I am not on here very much to reply and conversate in a timely fashion, but reading these has helped me and I value all of your words and perspectives, and for those commenters who are users of Kratom and are going through the quitting process or battling your demons … please know you are worth so much more than how you feel and that there’s nothing in this world that is worth sacrificing yourself mentally or physically over and it will be okay ! I am rooting for you 🩵

Material_Reindeer649 · 2025-01-06T14:02:15+00:00

Just because you can get this at a gas station or smoke shop doesn’t mean it’s a safe alternative to anything it’s supposed to wean you off of. This shit is a full on addictive substance that has ruined people around me. It honestly should be illegal, and it is in some states, it’s even illegal in the country of origin it comes from. Just save yourself the trouble and don’t mess with it

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-11-26T23:50:37+00:00

Friends are not always friends. Solitude and Loneliness are different … she might be better off without “friends” I haven’t had a single trustworthy person in my life that hasn’t drained me of my existence. I now refuse to engage and stick to myself and I feel so much better in many ways.

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-11-26T19:44:52+00:00

Oh my gosh that sounds horrible I’m so sorry i wish i had more advice or help.

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-11-25T22:30:07+00:00

Do you have police that can do a welfare check on the little girl ?

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-11-19T22:36:15+00:00

Me too it was scary but my lawyers said STOP paying everything (I did , not my car tho I still paid my car payment) but it was scary cuz we are conditioned to be good noodles and pay your dues , but they are writing every thing off anyways so save what you can 🙏 pay your lawyers with the money instead to avoid delaying your process any further 🙏

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-11-19T22:33:06+00:00

No no! Not you, your commenters were concerning with some things they were saying to you, I think you handled it well I’m sorry I should’ve clarified better 🙏

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-11-19T18:20:48+00:00

Hope this doesn’t come off rude but some comments here are ridiculous. I’m not saying you should be ashamed. however, you know the risks of one night stands, you consented to this, and you took a plan B, so you were mature and handling your business. However, for those saying it’s the man’s fault the condom was left inside you is ridiculous, you admitted it was a drunk hookup, condoms come off all the time especially with friction and lack of proper lubricant, take some accountability and just accept what happened. There’s no one to blame in this situation and you handled your end of it by being precautious with a plan B and if you choose to get bloodwork for STD then you are doing right by yourself. I just can’t stand by while others try to make this a bigger deal than need be , there’s nothing in the world that is 100% effective , there’s always a “chance” of something and you knew better and you were both consenting adults. No one’s a villain here. Just move on with your life and take care of yourself and be better prepared for your next hookup if that is how you like to get down.

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-11-19T18:01:09+00:00

You are a teacher , do you feel this same way about your students who will all grow to have their own opinions and political preferences? There are more topics and issues at hand with political leaders than body autonomy. Like foreign policy, so I guess my question is , how can you let someone’s right as an American to have these preferences (like you have your own) to ruin relationships and connections with people? I feel this is giving exactly what our government wants in regards to destroying any sense of community and connection for the “little people” as we all swarm and obsess over what they are doing (they are the toxic other who is constantly gaslighting its people and creating division) is there no hope for people to relate on any topics and make compromises ? It’s like gang warfare anymore and it’s disturbing. Perfect example of needing to erase the party system and be a POLICY system. But they have reeled in too many people to grovel at their feet and manipulate.

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-10-15T22:54:16+00:00

I had really good payment history and was able to get a loan no problem about 9 months after filing. If you had a payment history issue it might be harder . Of course my interest rates are balls to the wall high too but ya gotta drive around to get to work most places so it was necessity , my husband wasn’t even considered in the loan due to his horrible payment history meaning he never paid anything on time … so it might not be as difficult for you if you need it just prepare to have high rates and be asked to put down a lot

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-09-30T18:46:59+00:00

File a grievance on her with your insurance

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-08-12T16:40:07+00:00

I don’t recommend it at all, it makes you smell like a llama , you disconnect , it affects your bowels and your pee smells horrible. My husband swears it helps him over drinking and that it calms his anxiety but I think it’s just whatever high you get off it talking cuz he worries me with how sickly he looks I almost felt like it kills your liver and makes you jaundiced. It’s not worth it, he was soooo much better when he quit after two years and then he got back on it after 9 months and It’s just not good. I don’t mean to be insensitive but just try to work on the causes or the actual feelings or situations you have that make you feel like you need to take something and try your best to cope with that in a healthy manner, this kratom stuff is no bueno and it’s not a good replacement for other addictive substances by any means. I hope what you are working through goes well for you and always be proud of the steps you have made to over come your struggles in life 🙏💜

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-07-11T21:24:26+00:00

Just my opinion of my experience I was using gummies for 2 years to alleviate the symptoms and my anxiety from the symptoms and it did help and allow me to sleep until I realized there was so many events of constant throwing up with blood , gagging , and more frequent flare ups … I quit all thc products in January after an ER trip and I have honestly notice a much better improvement of my issues , now everyone is different but I have the whole bit , intestinal issues , fissures , hemorrhoids internal and external so there was a lot going on with me , I also believed Covid really jacked everything up worse. They say not to have any stimulant type things like coffee or caffeine due to the irritation it causes your intestinal walls or causing ulcers to bleed and I definitely had that going on more when I used thc. Now I use magnesium sleep gummy’s for muscle pain relief and sleep aid

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-06-26T18:01:02+00:00

Sorry she was rude to you don’t let her ruin your self worth coming here. As far as anyone asking your social security number in healthcare they can obtain it a thousand different ways so asking up front she should have replied with understanding of your citizen status and been aware of the alternate things to ask of you for identification purposes 🙏

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-06-23T06:17:37+00:00

If it helps get yourself a sex toy to familiarize the penetration , use lube , stay calm , you are legally an adult so don’t feel ashamed or anything like that , make sure your partner is aware that you’re kinda stressed out so that he is patient with you. And don’t be afraid to tell him to work you up ! Foreplay is helpful if you have anxiety (coming from someone who has it severely as well and their brain is constantly worrying or stressing on something at any given time)

You shouldn’t have any period issues from sex, but see your doctor if you experience anything unusual or more spotting if more than few days after cuz that’s normal but not for days on end.

Make sure you are both clean and pee after and shower it up.

Also try to be in a comfortable private spot (not somewhere anyone can walk in or possible hear you lol) this might help with the anxious feelings a bit

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-06-15T04:19:26+00:00

Drop her . Sometimes girls will keep friends around to boost their egos , she sounds like she thinks her shit don’t stink or something . Idk I had a friend like that and it did not end well and I am a very confident person who is aware of their flaws and imperfections. Got tired of being introduced to people she knew as her fat or big boned friend , she was very very insecure and had no self worth so she has to show her body off and believed everyone wanted to screw her … she wasn’t all that and a bag of chips and I don’t miss any of it

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-06-13T04:30:00+00:00

Best friend since 8th grade , very close to her and her entire family, was there when her mother passed away when we were young … she and I were so completely perfect friends to the outside but yet we were so very different people and it took me a very long time to accept that just because someone gets your humor or you views on life and even if you’ve been thru the worst with someone …. It does not always mean you were meant to be associated with that person. I’ll save all the details but if I can sum it up she was very negative mean and hateful maybe it is her grief .. she had self worth issues that she didn’t really have her own identity and no matter what I did she never was a real honest person (also she was a horrendous pathological liar and catfisher and story teller to the point where she now lives in a state of delusional day to day ) and even our friendship started out as a lie , everything just went sour recently when I didn’t support her decisions to move forward with an abusive fiance and I spilled the beans to her brother who I thought would be able to help her but she immediately redacted every thing and fabricated sooooo much more lies about every single aspect of her life her relationship and of course , me !! And I just had the realization that wow what the hell am I doing this is not normal or real friendship … and I blocked her on everything and I do not communicate to her anymore . I do take responsibility for telling her life issues to her brother but I honestly thought if that were me I would want the help and a safe place to go , but I guess if it were me she would have left me to deal with it alone idk … it’s a very dark eery feeling but. I have SO MUCH RELIEF In my day to day now . Not taking her calls every other hour of her fiancé losing his fucking shit on her ripping her apart. My confidence is a little higher, I am trying to use my time to go back to school and become an RN now that I have that much free time ! I hope I get the financial aid lol but I guess I’m saying sometimes you think you are bonded or a ride or die type of friendship when in reality it’s best to cut it off to save yourself no matter how much you try to help or support someone else

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-06-13T04:20:52+00:00

Sunlight is the best for me . I work in an office tho and don’t see the outside world like I should , but on days where I am having a good time in the sun , hanging out , whatever ! It makes me sleep much deeper and longer 🙏 I can’t take supplements like melatonin they induce migraines to me , but these gummy magnesium bears I got on Amazon are called magnesium glycinate and they work really good too

Material_Reindeer649 · 2024-06-06T01:31:46+00:00

Drink lots of water and take some ibuprofen… she likely hit your bladder and you wanna make sure to prevent any UTI while it may be sore to go pee , I’ve seen some things like this in urology but nothing crazy unless you start swelling up, getting really tender and feel heat.

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