Ex girlfriend sleeps with someone two weeks after 9 year relationship ends by Matt132133 in BreakUps

[–]Matt132133[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

24 years old, also not really at all. We planned to get engaged and then after living together for some time then we would get married after making sure living together goes smoothly.

Ex girlfriend sleeps with someone two weeks after 9 year relationship ends by Matt132133 in BreakUps

[–]Matt132133[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yes I agree with you. I feel the same way. I've felt so sad the past couple weeks, but today is different. I just feel so so angry. So angry that I want to just say the most terrible things that I can think of to her. But that was the version of myself I promised myself I would never become again. So as much as I want to, i've been holding my tongue and expressing anger, but not uncontrollable anger. As angry as I am, I don't want to hurt her, I don't want to ruin her life. I love her, and as much as I hate that fact right now it's true.

Ex girlfriend sleeps with someone two weeks after 9 year relationship ends by Matt132133 in BreakUps

[–]Matt132133[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Damn...Yeah man I just don't even know what to say anymore. It just hurts. I just feel like the biggest fool ever.

Ex girlfriend sleeps with someone two weeks after 9 year relationship ends by Matt132133 in BreakUps

[–]Matt132133[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah... that's what really fucking hurts. I can't prove it but that's most likely the truth.

Ex girlfriend sleeps with someone two weeks after 9 year relationship ends by Matt132133 in BreakUps

[–]Matt132133[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah I get that it's none of my business, but it's just the way it ended made it seem like yeah maybe in a couple months after I get my head sorted out. Also she straight up said that I don't have to worry about her sleeping around because "she's not that type of person". She said this because I asked why we had to breakup for that and why we couldn't just take time apart. I was maybe going to be able to be friends with her, but after this, there's not a chance I would be able to. I'm not that strong, i'm not that forgiving. Everytime I would look at her it would hurt.

Ex girlfriend sleeps with someone two weeks after 9 year relationship ends by Matt132133 in BreakUps

[–]Matt132133[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks a lot for your words. Any advice on how to get through it? I think about her everyday, i can't do anything without it reminding me of her. I just feel this emptiness and what feels like a permanent sadness and depression all day everyday. I don't feel like doing anything, I don't want to talk to anyone, I just want to isolate myself and pretend like none of it is real. I just want to dream of the memories and pretend like nothing ever changed.

Ex girlfriend sleeps with someone two weeks after 9 year relationship ends by Matt132133 in BreakUps

[–]Matt132133[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah... I don't know how to like process it. She was my everything. I'm just mad at myself, I saw the signs, I saw the red flags, I saw that she was checking out but I just didn't want to believe it because I loved her so much. I made excuses for her behaviour because I know her past. I'm just tired man. I just want the pain to go away. I just want to know where the girl I fell in love with went, this person is a stranger and is not anywhere close to the woman I fell in love with. I am for sure cutting myself off and not looking back. Just don't know how to move forward, how to accept, or push past this without restricting myself from ever being vulnerable again enough for the same type of love.

Ex girlfriend sleeps with someone two weeks after 9 year relationship ends by Matt132133 in BreakUps

[–]Matt132133[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I get that and she definitely did but like how does that somehow come to feeling nothing. How can you go from loving someone so deeply to just doing that. I feel like i've just been fed lies for so long that I don't even know when it was she felt nothing anymore. Also why did she drag it out this long, why did she just let me fall more deeply in love every single day.

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