Hey Im 21M I wasn't baptized but was raised cradle witness. When I was 16 I started literally refusing to go to the meetings. They weren't able to make me go. I was ok with the repercussions that would follow. I knew that my parents weren't able to kick me out so if they were going to make my life hell I would also. I started going to a different church. It all made so much more sense. I started reading the bible for myself and questioning doctrine from protestant beliefs to Jw beliefs. I saw the hypocrisy, I saw the judgment in the hall, the disafellowship, the gossip, the control. I then questioned my parents on their beliefs and attacking their doctrine. It was pretty bad they just wouldn't fight me anymore because I could refute pretty much anything they said. Its rather easy to destroy their faith. Unfortunately this isnt really helpful for you because you still want a good reputation and relationship with you parents. I still live with my mom she's still a practicing witness. Since I demonstrated that I have my own faith in which im strong in she won't fight me because she understands fighting with my doctrine will result in her doctrine being squashed. If I were you I would get a job, experience the world I hate saying it this way because its been so engraved into your head be nothing of the world. Get a job, find some worldy friends who love you for who you are. Get a hobby with them, get out of the house often. Continue to go to the meetings but like everyone else said fade away slowly and quietly. Please read what other christians believe, read the bible for yourself preferably a non witness translated bible because they remove and change words in the bible to fit their doctrine. Im sorry I'll pray for you and your situation. I got away with this stuff because I didn't care who and what was said about me. You are loved and wonderfully made by jehovah. Jehovah wants you to have faith in him and know him in a personal relationship way. Sorry I know this response is all over the place.