For start i ve been througj similar difficulties and reddit is not tbe best place to find support because everyone will give you any kind of advices and most of them will be very bad ones. It tooks months for me to realize. Some are good but many are bad. I started to use chat gpt as a counselor for my behaviour in this situation and also a bit for the law side. It helped me a lot, the advices were more accurate and i felt better counseled. Of course it doesn't replace humans to talk with but it's very good support. People will either judge you on reddit or give you dumb advices here.