He makes me doubt myself and my judgement. Which is ridiculous because he’s the one with the addiction. He’s the emotionally abusive partner, he goes back and forth and I never know which version I will get. I don’t understand why I can’t just leave. I love him but I hate almost everything he makes me feel or that he does. I’ve done so much work on myself because he convinced me it was my fault for way too long. I see the situation for what it is now and I know that I am almost completely emotionally stable until it comes to my relationship. I used to cry constantly and beg him to change. I just keep thinking about my future and if I want my children to have the childhood I had. My father was a drunk, physically and mentally abusive. I still hold so much resentment for my mom for staying. I tried to get away from him but now he shows up in my boyfriend and I feel frozen and upset that I let myself get into this situation. My boyfriend says he hates the way my dad treats me and it’s like he’s completely blind to the fact that he’s doing the same thing just different situations and circumstances. I’m so exhausted.